Showing posts with label my story. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my story. Show all posts

how to end stressful day.

this is what i do on this stressful day...

i went shopping during lunch hour. walk around and not think about work. end up buying this RM14.95 yellow pair of shoes for my upcoming surabaya trip. cheap cheap wan... in case it gets all soiled and black also i wont feel the pinch. if i take my nike.... i will cry i think....
and went to eat grilled fish and 'ojean' at everyday foodcourt. wanted somethign really spicy but dunno why it didnt taste spicy so not that satisfactory. i think cos i emotional d so tastebud also become emotional... ahhahaa...


oh well.. the end of sulking. there are ppl more cham than me so i shouldnt be dwelling on it. move on because there are still work to be done. leave this behind...

i am blessed

did i tell u angels came and fix my baby? hehe...
baby needed a hdd-transplant due to bad sector. that's why it kept crashing...

it was pretty stressful but then plans were made to fix it on sunday but it didnt turned up so baby crashed again at night. i text to angel and told her i am just going to office, take my backup hdd so i can go to work the next day at another place, then go to take money to buy the new hdd and then go to sleep.

i came home, changed and went to bed... then an sms came...

angel and boyfriend (yes, some angels are allowed to have boyfriends) went dating at digital mall to get me the hard disk, casing for it so that got screw driver, came all the way to pusat bandar puchong to do operation transplant for my baby and put the bad hdd into the casing to be my ext hdd so that i can retrieve the data!! how brilliant can they be!!!

i couldnt ask for more.
but they were really angels.
they were thoughtful enough to even sponsor about half of the hdd money so that i am not stressed with the many other bills that i had to fork out in the same season (fix car twice, pay accident saman, buy new internal cdrom, buy new hdd and the other spoiled things.....)

i really really really really thank nailin and jor han for being 'family' to me... especially when i needed to not give in to my 'being sad'... you guys are the angels!


after this incident, i decided to take a break... i thought of going to brunei to visit jessica and then lo and behold, she welcomed me (of course) by providing food and entertainment. and three person actually just gave me love gift for the trip... i think the trip is kinda fully covered d!

and then yesterday, kat's company decided to go for company trip and i am being invited along now that i am 'part' of the company in a way... ahahha... yahoo! fully paid trip to Surabaya in June for me! yeah yeah yeah....

in all this, i want to testify that even though i was super tight but i decided to tithe still and then the above blessings came pouring in....

=)
everything
COMPARE TO
ETERNITY
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becomes small and insignificant to hold on to.... like unforgiveness, grudges and material things...
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choose what matters...

love in a day

in the midst of an adventurous day, i received a tremendous loving card. it makes me smile, laugh and almost teared... thanks ed-girl... thanks for showing love - that came at the perfect time in an imperfect day...

little things like this gives me strength to go on. a manja from nailin, a hug from kat, a love card from edwina, a concerned chat with pc, grace from steven, and gets to eat all the sushi i love.... makes the season easier to go through...

Mar/Apr THE POINT - an upcoming issue dropped from heaven...

let me share a little about how great is my god.

i forgot about coming out with the point. things happen and it just slipped my mind.. by the time i remember about it, it was soooo last min and sooo rush that i knew none of my usual designers can come out with the cover design for me - not matter how i beg them cos i also happen to know what are the other list of things they are rushing for. so i know i'm doomed. but...
but the secret is i've got the best god ever! right when i was thinking what am i gonna do, god dropped this into my heart - "do it yourself. do a drop of blood. put the word 'forgiven' and full stop it with the cross".
it's not the award-winning design ever but it's real to everyone who'd encountered the forgiveness of the cross. it's simple. it's simply real.

suddenly, i came to be at peace. no stress over it, no fret over it. so i went to search for a drop of blood kind of picture (many gory ones came out and spoiled my breakfast appetite!!!) and came across this photo. i kinda plonk it in, sent to the pastoral staffs for opinions (didnt want to scare the kids just in case) and the response was ok. so this is the upcoming cover of the mar/apr THE POINT. just want to let you know that the church's newsletter sometimes 'drop from sky'... ahahahha.... enjoy it - the issue from heaven.



my mondays

every mondays, this is where i am...
this past week, i was trying to break into a new habit - early for work. so every night i try to sleep a little bit earlier, every morning i set my alarm for 7am and try to wake up, then reach office by 8:10am or so. the window of time from then til ppl started coming in about 9:20am is my peace and quiet time. (except yesterday morning i cant wake up cos went to midnite movie and got home like 2:30am or so....)

i've come to appreciate it so much. just a window for me to gather my tots, do a few personal things (like blogging now), sort a few things out before things start to pick up and i rush for my life... hahahha....

i kinda like this new habit more. i started a part-time job every monday. so now my time is even more scheduled. everything needs to be well-planned else i end up at the bottom of a pile of things to do. i still hope to keep my sanity! hahahaah....

Sharon - before. Sherr - after!

This is what i did in celebration of my 28th birthday! ehehe...

THE PROCESS
THIS IS THE GUY THAT CHOPPED OFF MY WAIST LENGTH LOCKS & COLORED IT BROWN
- KELVIN

he kinda look funny in this pix! hehe...



And i also decided to do something i've never done before
- went to sing karaoke! hahah...


an interesting weekend with samanthan kaan

mold the minds since young before they are caught by the world.
that was what i felt God spoke to me that gave me the peace to go to Samantha Kaan's 10th year old birthday sleepover at Cititel last Sun/Mon.

since it started with God wanting me to go, so i asked Him what does He want to share with Samantha?
the word love came.
there are different kinds of love
the head love - where it's just on the head like a hairclip but not in the heart, sometimes u yourself see it in the mirror but it's not really in the heart n many times they go unnoticed til u reach up and touched it n remember it's still there.
the band-aid love - there might come a time where you'll be hurt by someone that u love. but it's ok. it will heal.
the 2nd band-aid love - love can also be like a band-aid. it can heal hurts. you are so full of God's love that your love can heal those ppl that are hurting.
the true love - it's just like a seed. u need to get the soil, put water and slowly see it grow to bear fruits of love. too much water, it will die. too little water it will die. it needs to be watched out with time and care. true love only comes when time and effort are spent. it's not just a crush. just like your relationship with God. it will bear fruits when time are spent in prayer, in the word and in fellowship. what u sow will be what u bear. sow anger, reap anger. sow love, reap love.


random tots includes:
  • i've since discovered that she's really full of life and have such love.
  • me and nailin shared, we cried. nancy shared, samantha cried.that was the difference.
  • samantha comes outs with brilliant come back answers that amazes us.
  • she just discovered about skincare products the nite before. this morning when we wanted to wash apple, both the toilets were occupied. i jokingly say, let's rub it on our blouse. she look up at me, smiled brilliantly and say innocently, "we can use my cleanser" - i laughed soooooo hard... ahahahah
  • the first innocent question after spending more than 4 hours with her, she asked "What's your most embarassing moment?" - me and nailin n the mom was just surprised out of our shoes! hahaha
  • nancy said that samantha booked me since one year ago. i didnt understand and asked her to explain. she say that last year when samantha saw serena had her 10th yr birthday thing, she aldy told nancy that next year my birthday, i want to ask jiejie sharon! ahhaah... makes me walk taller!
  • she say she likes my smile. then she say she likes seeing me laugh. no wonder she told so many funny things!
  • we waited for nailin to come after ecfd. samantha was so impatient waiting to open her present box. so i told her be patient a little bit longer. u waited all morning, wait another hour and jiejie nailin will be here. she reply instantaneously, "no. i waited ten years for this." ahahhaha.... there is sooo much truth in it that i cant deny it's a correct answer. me and the mom look at each other and laughed and laughed.
  • while we were waiting, she asked, "mummy, can i jump on the bed?" her mom say can and started shooting her video. then i said, "nancy u should jump with her" and both mother and daughter started jumping on the bed!!! hahahaahaahah....
  • one time the family in the car was driving at the industrial area looking for a building that's a church but not really look like a church so everyone was on a lookout when samantha shouted that she saw it..... the building say "FOLLOW ME" - samantha's brilliant answer was the bible say Jesus say "come follow me and i will make you fishers of men" so FOLLOW ME must be a church!!!! ahahahahahahahahah
  • she's very affectionate and would randomly come and hug you, touch your hand. i had food poisoning for a few days d - she kept asking me how is my stomach, how am i, please eat my fish. 'you should have told me and i wouldn't have choose to eat sushi king so u can eat the food' - sooooooo affectionate! so sayang.
  • before the sisters leave the room, she will say 'let me hug of you before you go' - she literally hugged the sisters before the leave and hugged and kiss the father and told him she love him before he leave! and it's a normal thing for her to do that.
  • she talks a lot. she answered all the questions she ask me and nailin
  • i felt like the kaan sisters really have the mark of great destiny in the life young as they are. it's so obvious that the enemy makes extra effort to tempt to over to his side.
  • i chat with nailin till almost 3am - we talk to each other so often but we still got so much to catch up?
  • prayed for her when she sent me home.
see! i told u she's brilliant and so full of life! i was glad of the weekend and glad to get to know her better.

i think the ten year old turned me into ten year old too for the last two days. it's good to be able to rest and relieve my mind in this way.

word for the weekend:
Jeremiah 33:3, call to me and i will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.

christmas rush...

this christmas, the rush is not on buying gifts or anticipating birthday but on...
- championing a station for puchong community to buy a gift for the orphans, refugee kids and poor family
- dancers retreat to plan for 2009 dance concert
- how to make birthdays more meaningful
- christmas production
- how office is supporting kids school holiday camp
- making my 2009 new planner - yeah!
- preparing for the special service with healing nature
- the new the point
- christmas with community@heart
- discipleship retreat in dec 26-29
- 2009 1a.m. Change Your World concept and theme
- how to run teens/yof better
- coordinating pc/kel wedding
- planning the best bridal shower for pc
- managing schedule for all the above on top of daily stuffs

mmm................. brain juice is squeeze and squeezed.
no complains because PC's list is even longer than mine!! hahaha...

2009

in 2009, i want to make productions that not just scratch surface emotions
but touches people's inner heart and spur them to want to do something about it!


this is not a boast but a reminder to myself.

come and see.

honor's reward

when i felt i had a word from God and spurred the team to go to hong kong, i thought it was worth it since each of us were so blessed and we received so much and we had such a good time that i thought it was already more than enough as a reward.

last nite at leadership retreat, pastor set the night to honor the leaders and he started with the first person that he wants to honor and it would be a suprise to the person. then he called me out!

i was really surprised. i didnt know.
i didnt expected it because i thought the honor was to those who led in lg and progressed so i'm definitely not in it because i dont lead life group! hahhaa...

he started to share about how i was a good help in the office and managing everything and serving them. he then mentioned about how, in faith, i spurred the dance team to the next level in the productions and even bringing the team to hong kong and seeing the team coming to different levels.

later, pastor shawn took the mic and he also honored a few ppl from the ecfd team and the last person he honored was nailin. he shared about how nailin stretched herself so much this year and each obstacle, each streetching time, she took the challenged and did not give up or quit. this had been her most-stretched-year and she did not quit.

i was thinkin to myself this morning. there were only two dance leaders in the midst and both of us were honored partly because of how we brought the team to the next level and to hong kong. the honor's reward did not end in hong kong but to those who believe in God, trusted Him, obeyed Him, it is still remembered in God's mind. i was tremendously encouraged.

how is it possible that i ran for the past 9 months and not come to discouragements at times?
i was going through a season where i shared with PC, i felt everything that i did seem to be wrong. wrong thing to do. wrong timing to do it. wrong place to do it. i was so beating myself up and so wanted to do less so do less wrong thing.

last nite's honor was a big encouragements to me. i am spurred so i can spurred others on in this new year coming. the race has not ended. my time is not up yet.

on top of that, there was a conspiracy going on since the first mornin i arrived.
throughout the two and a half days, i kept receiving surprises and notes and encouragements - which i suspect is from my d-gals! hahah... from macdonald's breakfast (which i really like), to cards, notes, box of sweets, sour stick, kit kat, lunches and dinners brought to me... hahah..... i was treated by angels... thanks to each of you!

2009 PLAN:
THERE'S GONNA BE A GREATER MANIFESTATION OF GOD'S PRESENCE.
GREATER THINGS HAD YET TO BE DONE...

God ask... i answered..."speechless"

i was counting my income and comparing it with my expenses... thinking to myself, how am i doing financially...

then I felt like the Holy Spirit came and look over my shoulders at what I'm writing and dropped me a question, "Sharon, what is it that you think I cannot provide for you?"

Before i open my mouth to say anything, God showed me a few things in the bible:
i. if it's about paying taxes, He can make the fish vomit coins to pay for it.
ii. if it's about not having enough to eat, He can multiply food more than enough to feed 4,000 or 5,000. He can make endless food buffets.
iii. if it's about having nothing to eat, He can make manna drop from sky, quail flying in for meat.
iv. if it's about getting back from what ppl took/owe/cheated from you, He can convict people like Matthew (tax collector) to return all that He'd cheated and four times!
v. if it's about having the 'desires of your heart' beyond the basic, He gave Solomon so much, made him the richest man ever - more than he's got enough places to spend those money.

the last but the best answer is this
(before i could even 'but...but..but...God...) He revealed...
if i'm still not convinced, He can make water turn into fish! He can make provision out of NOTHINGNESS! just like how He did when He told Peter to put the net into the other side of the boat. the fishes didn't come out of hiding but they were CREATED on the spot FOR PETER and the fishermen!

then, God asked me again, "Sharon, so now that i've reminded you on what I've proven I can do, tell me, what is it you think I cannot provide for you? Which expenses that you were fretting about?"
i answered - speechless. (I've nothing that I can say in answer to that question. my heart is convicted.
giving offering and tithe is not a chore or an 'expense' - it's an 'investment'.)

There were times we share like this - "give to God today and see if He will not bless you tomoro!"

but today,
God said to me, "Sharon, the test of faith was never about whether I can provide for you or not, the test of faith was whether you will give to me out of what you have even when you only SEE what you have."

Straightaway I went to YC's table, took an offering envelope and put in the money due to God.

My faith now is not in what I have or what I need or want, but in God to BELIEVE that HE CAN provide for me any way He chooses too - through fishes, quail, or even provision that DROP FROM THE SKY!

Better please HIM than please myself. I can't make money drop from sky but God can! hehehe....

grace, life. choose.

1. somehow, this lady reminds me of Ina. =)
2. these words are real in my life.
3. everyone needs grace - especially u n me.
*Lord, i need you. need you more than i dare admit, or grasping or crying out for. i just need you. and now i need you again.

Tell me why'd you run?
You say you’re so ashamed
Bruised and broken
Thought if I figured out the mess you've made
Then I’d leave

But anywhere you are
He's never too far away
There’s freedom from your scars
The mistakes that you’ve made
Forgiven
The memories erased
Baby, that’s the beauty of grace

La de da, la de da da

Tell me what is love?
I’ll never hold you to
The things you may have done
You say you want new life
In My arms there’s mercy

So blow a kiss goodbye
To all the pain you hide



1. we really are meant to live for so much more but somehow, lives' not that easy to push forward.
2. i need this reminder to continue to breath and live. if i stay and give up, i'll choke myself to my own grave.
3. the music is good. strong. purposeful. like whacking it on my head - get it? get it? live for more, sharon!! you need a dose too!
*i rber the movie. spiderman didnt want to be spiderman.... we are all meant to be 'someone'. who are you? Between who you are and who you could be.
**the switchfoot song "dare you to move" seems like a good victory weekend rally song. will my thought ends up as a production? hahah..

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

[Chorus]
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

[Chorus]

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live


i am an "ISFJ / ISTJ"

i saw Shawn's test and decided to take my own instead. You can take your test here too.

my JUNG TEST RESULTS
- i got a tie in thinking n feeling. hence the dual results below.

Introverted (I) 67.74% Extroverted (E) 32.26%
Sensing (S) 60% Intuitive (N) 40%
Thinking (T) 50% Feeling (F) 50%
Judging (J) 51.52% Perceiving (P) 48.48%

Your type is: ISFJ
ISFJ - "Conservator". Desires to be of service and to minister to individual needs - very loyal. 13.8% of total population.

Your type is: ISTJ
ISTJ - "Trustee". Decisiveness in practical affairs. Guardian of time- honored institutions. Dependable. 11.6% of total population.

passion world tour - kuala lumpur


went to passion concert on sun nite.
i was real sick, had yof in the morning, pointcast shooting and after that, kat treated me to thai massage. my body is telling me it needs to sleep, my spirit is telling me 'you need spiritual encounter'. so i went and i was glad. i know i needed it.

what i receive was clear:

"Yes, Lord, walking in the way of Your truth we wait eagerly for You, for Your name and Your renown are the desire of our souls."
Isaiah 26:8
this verse had since lodged in me and i'm going to paste it at my notebook to remind myself of my encounter with God. i live to make God's name renown.


as i was listening to the story on ashley, my spirit reminded me about the impact we are making when we share our testimonies too - especially in the dance production. i'm glad we've been sharing it. never give up a chance to glorify God in testimony. i smsed this to all my dancers.


there were no magnificent production or creative performance but the presence of god was very evident but with the presence of God, ppl were touched, lives were impacted. somehow, i realised - less is more. simple is better. presence is better than creativity. on my way home in ps tim's car, i suggested to him, this year end production, let's just do worship concert lah and no need put on a performance! hahaha...... lol....


i was touched and i was glad for the platform to worship, to release into God's presence. if it's in church, i hardly get a full concentration time because i'm so alert to the happenings in the service. but as i receive from God, i'm glad for the chance.
something in me changed. and i want to keep the change and allow God to do more in my life.


God has more installed in my life, my ministry, my works - first, i need him to sanctify me, my thoughts, my desires, my soul, my body... oh God, how much i really need you.

thank you lord for your mercy and grace.

journey to the centre of God's will...

let me just share one journey with you:

I and my dance team are on a new mission to Project Dance Hong Kong. (www.projectdance.com)

That’s a whole new story by itself. If we are in tune with what God is doing and what He wants us to do, you are to be sure everything is coming along and fallin into place by itself here and there. It’s been such an interesting, inspiring yet fear and trembling journey.

To see how everything coming into place is sooo exciting but to come the realization that this is a ‘holy’ project because a ‘holy’ God is in charge makes it excitingly-fear-and-trembling… what’s God gonna do next? What should we do here? And by prayers all is coming along…

Just to share with you some
REVELATIONS FROM GOD =)

1. it started with I was talking to one of my girls who was pestering me to submit a performance to this event but I didn’t wanted to dance with all the other pro dancers that’s gonna be there. I didn’t want to feel like an amateur. But then out of my mouth (without going thru my head), I blurted out – “If God got a message thru us, die-die also we will go and do it, else no need.”


2. Then, I drive home. On the way, before reaching, God spoke, “Use their culture to speak to them.” !! haha… so since I cant take back the words I just spoke about ‘die-die also do if God spoke’ like ten minutes ago, hence I started on this journey of submitting a dance performance. I shared with the team. From no one going, they began to be inspired to go.


3. God showed me to use this song that we’ve been choreographing but never got the right moment to use it - “Gai bian zhi ji” – now it fits - this song is meant for this production at this place. It’s a Chinese song = using their culture to speak to the hong kong Chinese.


4. we were having a roadblock with the choreography and the flow of the whole production. Then in my shower + praying time, God spoke – “The choreography should not be an expression of your skill but of the song and the message.” It makes sense because if you are able to do this, even if the person don’t know what the song is saying but through watching the dancer’s movement + expressions, they will still understand the message – that is an expression of the message! Hence, we started to explore to use props and a little bit of drama within the dance choreography.


5. one day, Nailin (my co-leader) just mentioned that she prefer to end the production with “it’s up to you whether you want to change or not instead of pushing Christ to the people.” But since we didn’t know how to execute it, we just went on with what we can do at the moment. I downloaded like a few hundred Cantonese/mandarin songs and after listening to most of it, I picked two songs to consider using as connection to the gaibianzhiji. then somehow as I was trying to translate the Cantonese song to English, I was shocked to discover the Cantonese song ends with a English rap. THE LAST LINE OF THE rap is “I leave that up to you.” I was shocked and most excited! Again, God has a hand over all these.


6. During snl (may 17, 08) worship time, I felt God said “pray for Him to open a way” for two of my team mates to go HK with us. and God showed me there and then that in our choreography, there is still two more spaces to slot in two more people into our testimony – bring 2 more people along!


7. true enough, one of the girls, rachel, her dad told her “not to waste money on this kind thing.” She fasted and prayed for three days, went to appeal to her dad again this time after she counted her cost and told her dad that she believe in what God wants to do so she’s gonna be pay half of the trip ($1100) from her own allowance and hope he will bless her with the other half. Guess what – this time her dad say “oklah. If God call you, He will provide the finance to us for you to go.” And he gave her the blessing to go with us!! Rachel’s faith had just increased. We are still praying for the other team mate.


8. I felt the song flow of the production is still not good enough. I wanted to cut the Cantonese shorter but then I really don’t know where to cut because there’s no repeat in the song and it’s actually a story from the beginning till the end. So on Monday (may 19, 08), after spending time in devotion, prayer and I pick up on the Cantonese song again asking God where to cut – lo and behold, God opened my eyes to show me where to cut!! And I was so excited because after cutting it there, the production flow much better and more right and makes better sense when connect to the other song! So I came in to church and cut it. the whole thing was shorten to 5.04 mins – which was exactly how we wanted it in the beginning.

9. finance has always been a consideration but we really believe in faith. When we started on this journey, actually none of us got the savings or look like we got the finance to go. But as I was sharing with different people about how God is bringing these pcs along, they begin to invest in this dream and believing in us. Some even told me God told her to give us 1k and she even added another 500 to top up because she believes in us! Many other people came and bless us financially to go. And believe it or not, we are not really pro dancers or good dancers – we just have a message to deliver…

10. I shared all these with the organizer from US. She was also inspired and she replied my email telling me that she would ask if anyone from the States will bless us for our registration fees!! Wow…

11. to top it all off, God grant me two desires of heart in this journey – one is to visit my old uncle in hong kong that I’ve not met for many year. It’s always been in my heart to visit him. Two is to visit disneyland. It’s also always in my heart to visit. Though I didn’t pray hard for these two desires, yet God knows and in trip of delivering a message for God, I get to strike off 2 wishes from my wish list. God is soooooo good to me!

12. we were rushing because one of the dancers planned to go back hometown but because of the trial and error rates, the deadlines were delayed. i cant tell her not to go home but somehow i didnt have time to look into the matter. But God did. her parents was going away the end of june and wanted to go back then instead of now! yahoo...

13. when nailin and i were going thru the sound effects to use as connectors in the production, i knew in my heart i wanted to use the heartbeats because it means alive but i didnt knew how to put it in 'connectingly' so we settled for other sound effects. but the production took a turn as we hit a roadblock and kaz & kat came to brainstorm with us they suggested the heart beat! haha...

14. the list will go on….. because God is not done with me yet =)

I know I’m being long-winded again.

But I feel and in my experience (above is just many of the man-ies), I believe God is involved in every little bit of details in our lives. We need to learn to listen to Him telling us what to do so that we can walk in where He wants us to walk. Then all the bits of this jigsaw puzzle call “my life” will fall into place.

And even if it does not fall into place like we see it with our physical eyes, I can tell you that you will still have this strange ‘calmness + peace’ that your faith eyes tells you that “it’s gonna be right just like how God say it is.” I can’t explain but I know because I’ve experienced it.

When you are inspired, you can inspire others as well.

How’s your journey with God? Has it been exciting?

Happy discovering!

Sharon

journey of discovering calling...

Someone wrote to me and asked me to share my journey of discovering my calling. It took me a while to dig my brain, squeeze whatever brain juice i've left over these past two weeks and piece this together. if you are also in somewhat of a journey, then let's converse... =)


1. pray and contend with God to show to you.

I prayed for a long time time (months) before God showed me a glimpse of His destiny for me. it was just a round light shining on the stage – with no explanation. I was very excited even though I didn’t know what it meant because the vision showed me that God did not forget about me. He HAS something installed for me. knowing I have a destiny for the first time – I always remember this night – at rock zone prayer meeting. I was on duty as the projectionist.

2. pray through it.

so I started the journey of praying – for my destiny/purpose to be clearer. As I pray, people started to come along to drop bits and pieces along the way that the puzzle forms to be clearer and I know it’s artistes related. So I started by praying for artistes. One night I was really praying and crying out to God for the entertainment industry that I got so tired I fell asleep and that night, God showed me a vision of what he can do in the industry. I was so excited and spurred on praying for the vision to come to pass.

3. try and discover.

I started to try different things related to my vision. Tryout being recorded for video interview, tryout to be host for the PointCast, running many different kinds of events - just to discover what I like and not like. I believe that if it’s our passion or calling, we would be graced in this area or at least like it. so trying different departments and tasks and projects helps me discover what kind of person I am too. And narrow down those that are not along the path. Never try never know.

4. faithful in what is before me currently.

Meanwhile, I continue to do what’s assigned for me in the church. leading the dance team helps me to ‘deal’ with artistic people. Each dance performance/project molds me to better “produce” a production n coming out with the idea of a performance. And I can see that I’ve become sharper in this area each time – making the production clearer and improving.

5. keep a journal.

Keeping a journal of our process keeps us excited. Each time God speaks or show you something or a vision, write it down. During times when you are discouraged, you can read back and reminded of God’s hand upon your life. And you can also see how much progression you’ve improved or not. I was walking in popular and saw this notebook with the word “ABSURD” at the cover. I knew I have to buy it, filling the white pages with the things of God. God’s vision is absurdly bigger than I can imagine or execute then but keep it for the future. These are my Nehemiah plans. When God open the right door, I can tell the person exactly what I want to do – my proposal was completely revealed to me previously!

6. evaluation

Always always check your motives, desires, attitudes and actions. Sometimes our desires or ‘passion’ can consume us, overtaking God’s place in our lives. Always check your heart. My prayer to God is that I don’t want to gain the dream and lose my soul or place in heaven. If it’s from God, everything will be according to HIS time, HIS place, HIS decisions. The moment I feel that I’m pushing Him to do it when I want it the way I want it, then I will draw my reins, dropped to my knees, repent and tell myself to obey God. The dream should never lord over us or God’s place in our lives. I was recently doing a research on famous people in the industry – many of them started out as Christians, singing in church choirs and got spotted in church but soon their talent became their God after they became famous. Forgetting God’s goodness – Destiny’s Child (taken from the books of Isaiah), Beyonce, Usher, Britney, Jessica Simpson, and many more. My calling is reach artiste. If I’m not right, I will end up being influenced by the world than influencing the world.

7. hearing God.

I never take actions unless God speaks. If I do not hear a specific word from God, I will soak a lot of prayers into it then make a call – I believe in decisions within prayer. God called me to work in this office. I wanted to leave many times wanting to work in the industry but it’s God that called me to work here so I stay here until god say move. Then I move. No matter how stubborn or rebellious or angry or emotional I am, I have a special place for god’s word – this is like special permission pass I gave to God – when he speak, no matter what state of emotion I am, I will obey. If I’m offended with someone, if God speak to me or my pastor speak about it, no matter how angry I am, I will obey, asking God for the grace to do it.

God is the center of all the above. If you submit to Him, everything will fall into place. If you shift his position, the destiny is short-lived, digressed, distracted or will not come to its full pass…

Keep the main thing the main thing.

I know I sound like its easy and do it all but practice makes it easier the next time we do it.

I’ve taken this journey over 6 years – there was once i asked God why is this journey so long. God showed me the many times in my life that I did not want to obey therefore I hindered His work in my life. That’s why it took so long. That night I cried like a baby realizing that it’s my own doing that like the Israelites, the journey of 40 days took 40 years because of rebellion.

Not sure if this is what you are expecting but I hope it helps.

up2sharon

CAMPUS WEEKEND 08!

all your LGs that prayed and put together the presentation, i really salute u guys for being so faithful to what God has spoken to you! it was amazing weekend and i really felt God's presence was so evident! Chinese Service was the most happening!! i think all the LGs spoke chinese in some ways - steven k even RAPPED in chinese! i'm so touched by the sincerity of everyone!
of course creative life put together an amazing production too...

one thing PC mentioned really stucked to me...
how many of you remember your grandparents' name?
how many of you remember your great grandparents' name?
in about 3 generations, you will be totally forgotten - even by your own family. make an impact while u still can. not just what will ppl remember about you

PC spoke to the 3 age group:
below 17yrs old - PREPARE HARD
prepare yourself towards campus so that you can make a difference

17-25 years old - LIVE LOUD
it is really so important to live out loud when we have the chance to do it. else time passed so fast. i wished i'd made a difference...

above 25 - LEAD RIGHT
like it or not, the younger ones always look up to the older ones. set the working culture right so that they see how working life can be in faith! don't ever think it will not affect you - the current campus generation will be the boss of your children!

*my testimony poster!
there were altogether 12 pcs. i thank God i pushed myself to do it. i was really encouraged reading all these ppl's testimony. like encouragement overdose or more like in one big dose. each of them allow God work in their lives and now they see things different.
when i wrote mine, i really cant connect it wif campus except that i was sad and wished i' d it different - i did mine last so in case cant make it then nvm mar.. but i did it by 4am. after i finish writing it, i close my eyes to pray wanted to ask God if this is the way He wanted me to write it, and i fell into deep sleep! hahha.... ooppps.. sorry lord...