Life at 33 going to 34...
Had a great fday of fun at a Jewellery making class... Then had a good dinner with mom n yc n David of course...
Took an emotional downturn suddenly.... Is it period coming? Why so emo?

I feel like I'm stuck in a position where life is moving pass me n I am not living or taking time to do what I want to do ... Standing where I am when the world just swirled past me n age is catching up and I'm still here. 

It's nothing to blame anyone... Just blame myself... What have I done with my life? Is it just about working, getting married, have kids, gets old and then die? If I wanna do what I like or wanna learn new things just for the educational purposes of it, am I being selfish to want my way...?

Or should I just shut my mind up, not think about it, and live day by day ignoring others n just work, go home and that's all there is to it?

March 16 anniversary!

March 16 marks our one year anniversary since we first start dating. Wow! What a year it had been! So much has changed and so much to change. Life is indeed different now as it was one year ago. I wouldn't have thought of today would be like today a year ago. 

Visiting Kingdom City Church

Wow. I stepped in without any expectations n also I just woke up... But right at praise n worship God touches my heart n breaks my hardened heart. God is still so good!

Count the cost but not fix a price ... In following Christ. 
COMMITMENT. The most challenging word in the church. 

John 6:53-56... Eat my flesh n drink my blood..
John 6:60.. This is very hard to understand... 
John 6:66-69... Turned n deserted him..

I don't want u to just believe in me with ur head but in complete abandonment ... I want your nourishment to come fr me.. Look at me as though I'm your food... Not just intellectual but 100% of me... Food u know not of...

Daily food. He's got something new for u everyday.. R u hungry for him daily?

Haggling attitude about always getting the best price.. 
Do we haggle on the price to pay to be a disciple..?

 ... I want Jesus but I'm not sure I want to pay the full price.... It's gonna require u to read the word of god n go to church... 

We devalue things n belittle things 

... the more we pay the more we regard it... We put a value on it depending on how much we've paid..

twist & turn

the twists and turns of life some times brings us to new places, to places we don't want to go, to places we've been there and done that again…

watched a fishing show yesterday…. some times like the fish, i am also twisting and turning and gasping for breath… not knowing whether is it my last breath and will be devoured as someone's dinner or find some unexpected saving grace where the person after shooting the show will let me go free and more miracle if the person actually dived in to released me back into the safe deeper bottom of the river in the correct direction to see me continue to go in the right direction and produce more fruitfulness.

what think you?

birthday 2014

this year it's a special birthday day for me. it's not just the first time i'm celebrating as a MRS, it's also the first time david is celebrating my birthday with me.

we took a trip to golden palm resort at sepang for a 2d1n away from the city since we've gotten a free room stay. we got upgraded cos the free room was not ready by the time we arrived. it was a lessing in disguised as we get to use the bathtub and this room is definitely bigger with a better view.

we went for dinner and before the night ends, the waitress and waiters came singing happy birthday with a cake and flowers of course. i was surprised and happy of course. good thing there were not many people around and i kinda feel shy. hahahahaha…. and then after that we went back to our room and when i came out from the toilet, there's a gift on the bed and later david came rushing out from the other toilet carrying the card. hahahaha….. he's really not much of a event planner or a romance… lol.

i love him.

though he didn't plan a flawless day or able to do all the romantic stuffs, but he did what he could.

later i asked him what would be his ideal birthday idea and he said that a casual day with no plans and no work and just enjoy the day as we go along. then it's no wonder he did not plan much for the day cos that would be his ideal kind of a day. hahahaha…. he gave me his most ideal kind of day.

the night ended with a simple dinner where he tried to make heart shape pork chop. he gave his passion and heart in preparing a meal and oh yes, he also lighted a candle and sang happy birthday to me. that was when i almost cry. my husband really loves me a lot.

though the day is not filled with plans and unlike my usual style or with a lot of surprises, yet it's life with a husband that loves me. that was how my 2014 birthday was spent…. life with a husband that loves me. i love him too.

did some really domestic tasks like……….. buy lunch for my husband, vacuum the floor, wipe the kitchen countertop, hang the laundry….. lol… all things i need not do for the past thirty over years! i am not really sure i can make it all up the standard of david yap… his cleanliness standard is rather high!… i asked him if he'd chose the right wife? cos i might not be able to achieve "the good wife" standard .. to be honest.

married life

one thing i discovered "after the dust has settled" … is that  we have very different "time zones"… i wake up early, he wake up late, i sleep early, he sleep late, i eat at breakfast time, lunch time and dinner time, while he eats at "after finish work time"… which usually spells as late lunch or supper time lol… by then I'm very hungry and my hands starts shivering and i start to be mang chang d! hahahaha…

more discovery coming up…