journey of discovering calling...

Someone wrote to me and asked me to share my journey of discovering my calling. It took me a while to dig my brain, squeeze whatever brain juice i've left over these past two weeks and piece this together. if you are also in somewhat of a journey, then let's converse... =)

1. pray and contend with God to show to you.

I prayed for a long time time (months) before God showed me a glimpse of His destiny for me. it was just a round light shining on the stage – with no explanation. I was very excited even though I didn’t know what it meant because the vision showed me that God did not forget about me. He HAS something installed for me. knowing I have a destiny for the first time – I always remember this night – at rock zone prayer meeting. I was on duty as the projectionist.

2. pray through it.

so I started the journey of praying – for my destiny/purpose to be clearer. As I pray, people started to come along to drop bits and pieces along the way that the puzzle forms to be clearer and I know it’s artistes related. So I started by praying for artistes. One night I was really praying and crying out to God for the entertainment industry that I got so tired I fell asleep and that night, God showed me a vision of what he can do in the industry. I was so excited and spurred on praying for the vision to come to pass.

3. try and discover.

I started to try different things related to my vision. Tryout being recorded for video interview, tryout to be host for the PointCast, running many different kinds of events - just to discover what I like and not like. I believe that if it’s our passion or calling, we would be graced in this area or at least like it. so trying different departments and tasks and projects helps me discover what kind of person I am too. And narrow down those that are not along the path. Never try never know.

4. faithful in what is before me currently.

Meanwhile, I continue to do what’s assigned for me in the church. leading the dance team helps me to ‘deal’ with artistic people. Each dance performance/project molds me to better “produce” a production n coming out with the idea of a performance. And I can see that I’ve become sharper in this area each time – making the production clearer and improving.

5. keep a journal.

Keeping a journal of our process keeps us excited. Each time God speaks or show you something or a vision, write it down. During times when you are discouraged, you can read back and reminded of God’s hand upon your life. And you can also see how much progression you’ve improved or not. I was walking in popular and saw this notebook with the word “ABSURD” at the cover. I knew I have to buy it, filling the white pages with the things of God. God’s vision is absurdly bigger than I can imagine or execute then but keep it for the future. These are my Nehemiah plans. When God open the right door, I can tell the person exactly what I want to do – my proposal was completely revealed to me previously!

6. evaluation

Always always check your motives, desires, attitudes and actions. Sometimes our desires or ‘passion’ can consume us, overtaking God’s place in our lives. Always check your heart. My prayer to God is that I don’t want to gain the dream and lose my soul or place in heaven. If it’s from God, everything will be according to HIS time, HIS place, HIS decisions. The moment I feel that I’m pushing Him to do it when I want it the way I want it, then I will draw my reins, dropped to my knees, repent and tell myself to obey God. The dream should never lord over us or God’s place in our lives. I was recently doing a research on famous people in the industry – many of them started out as Christians, singing in church choirs and got spotted in church but soon their talent became their God after they became famous. Forgetting God’s goodness – Destiny’s Child (taken from the books of Isaiah), Beyonce, Usher, Britney, Jessica Simpson, and many more. My calling is reach artiste. If I’m not right, I will end up being influenced by the world than influencing the world.

7. hearing God.

I never take actions unless God speaks. If I do not hear a specific word from God, I will soak a lot of prayers into it then make a call – I believe in decisions within prayer. God called me to work in this office. I wanted to leave many times wanting to work in the industry but it’s God that called me to work here so I stay here until god say move. Then I move. No matter how stubborn or rebellious or angry or emotional I am, I have a special place for god’s word – this is like special permission pass I gave to God – when he speak, no matter what state of emotion I am, I will obey. If I’m offended with someone, if God speak to me or my pastor speak about it, no matter how angry I am, I will obey, asking God for the grace to do it.

God is the center of all the above. If you submit to Him, everything will fall into place. If you shift his position, the destiny is short-lived, digressed, distracted or will not come to its full pass…

Keep the main thing the main thing.

I know I sound like its easy and do it all but practice makes it easier the next time we do it.

I’ve taken this journey over 6 years – there was once i asked God why is this journey so long. God showed me the many times in my life that I did not want to obey therefore I hindered His work in my life. That’s why it took so long. That night I cried like a baby realizing that it’s my own doing that like the Israelites, the journey of 40 days took 40 years because of rebellion.

Not sure if this is what you are expecting but I hope it helps.