journey to the centre of God's will...

let me just share one journey with you:

I and my dance team are on a new mission to Project Dance Hong Kong. (www.projectdance.com)

That’s a whole new story by itself. If we are in tune with what God is doing and what He wants us to do, you are to be sure everything is coming along and fallin into place by itself here and there. It’s been such an interesting, inspiring yet fear and trembling journey.

To see how everything coming into place is sooo exciting but to come the realization that this is a ‘holy’ project because a ‘holy’ God is in charge makes it excitingly-fear-and-trembling… what’s God gonna do next? What should we do here? And by prayers all is coming along…

Just to share with you some
REVELATIONS FROM GOD =)

1. it started with I was talking to one of my girls who was pestering me to submit a performance to this event but I didn’t wanted to dance with all the other pro dancers that’s gonna be there. I didn’t want to feel like an amateur. But then out of my mouth (without going thru my head), I blurted out – “If God got a message thru us, die-die also we will go and do it, else no need.”


2. Then, I drive home. On the way, before reaching, God spoke, “Use their culture to speak to them.” !! haha… so since I cant take back the words I just spoke about ‘die-die also do if God spoke’ like ten minutes ago, hence I started on this journey of submitting a dance performance. I shared with the team. From no one going, they began to be inspired to go.


3. God showed me to use this song that we’ve been choreographing but never got the right moment to use it - “Gai bian zhi ji” – now it fits - this song is meant for this production at this place. It’s a Chinese song = using their culture to speak to the hong kong Chinese.


4. we were having a roadblock with the choreography and the flow of the whole production. Then in my shower + praying time, God spoke – “The choreography should not be an expression of your skill but of the song and the message.” It makes sense because if you are able to do this, even if the person don’t know what the song is saying but through watching the dancer’s movement + expressions, they will still understand the message – that is an expression of the message! Hence, we started to explore to use props and a little bit of drama within the dance choreography.


5. one day, Nailin (my co-leader) just mentioned that she prefer to end the production with “it’s up to you whether you want to change or not instead of pushing Christ to the people.” But since we didn’t know how to execute it, we just went on with what we can do at the moment. I downloaded like a few hundred Cantonese/mandarin songs and after listening to most of it, I picked two songs to consider using as connection to the gaibianzhiji. then somehow as I was trying to translate the Cantonese song to English, I was shocked to discover the Cantonese song ends with a English rap. THE LAST LINE OF THE rap is “I leave that up to you.” I was shocked and most excited! Again, God has a hand over all these.


6. During snl (may 17, 08) worship time, I felt God said “pray for Him to open a way” for two of my team mates to go HK with us. and God showed me there and then that in our choreography, there is still two more spaces to slot in two more people into our testimony – bring 2 more people along!


7. true enough, one of the girls, rachel, her dad told her “not to waste money on this kind thing.” She fasted and prayed for three days, went to appeal to her dad again this time after she counted her cost and told her dad that she believe in what God wants to do so she’s gonna be pay half of the trip ($1100) from her own allowance and hope he will bless her with the other half. Guess what – this time her dad say “oklah. If God call you, He will provide the finance to us for you to go.” And he gave her the blessing to go with us!! Rachel’s faith had just increased. We are still praying for the other team mate.


8. I felt the song flow of the production is still not good enough. I wanted to cut the Cantonese shorter but then I really don’t know where to cut because there’s no repeat in the song and it’s actually a story from the beginning till the end. So on Monday (may 19, 08), after spending time in devotion, prayer and I pick up on the Cantonese song again asking God where to cut – lo and behold, God opened my eyes to show me where to cut!! And I was so excited because after cutting it there, the production flow much better and more right and makes better sense when connect to the other song! So I came in to church and cut it. the whole thing was shorten to 5.04 mins – which was exactly how we wanted it in the beginning.

9. finance has always been a consideration but we really believe in faith. When we started on this journey, actually none of us got the savings or look like we got the finance to go. But as I was sharing with different people about how God is bringing these pcs along, they begin to invest in this dream and believing in us. Some even told me God told her to give us 1k and she even added another 500 to top up because she believes in us! Many other people came and bless us financially to go. And believe it or not, we are not really pro dancers or good dancers – we just have a message to deliver…

10. I shared all these with the organizer from US. She was also inspired and she replied my email telling me that she would ask if anyone from the States will bless us for our registration fees!! Wow…

11. to top it all off, God grant me two desires of heart in this journey – one is to visit my old uncle in hong kong that I’ve not met for many year. It’s always been in my heart to visit him. Two is to visit disneyland. It’s also always in my heart to visit. Though I didn’t pray hard for these two desires, yet God knows and in trip of delivering a message for God, I get to strike off 2 wishes from my wish list. God is soooooo good to me!

12. we were rushing because one of the dancers planned to go back hometown but because of the trial and error rates, the deadlines were delayed. i cant tell her not to go home but somehow i didnt have time to look into the matter. But God did. her parents was going away the end of june and wanted to go back then instead of now! yahoo...

13. when nailin and i were going thru the sound effects to use as connectors in the production, i knew in my heart i wanted to use the heartbeats because it means alive but i didnt knew how to put it in 'connectingly' so we settled for other sound effects. but the production took a turn as we hit a roadblock and kaz & kat came to brainstorm with us they suggested the heart beat! haha...

14. the list will go on….. because God is not done with me yet =)

I know I’m being long-winded again.

But I feel and in my experience (above is just many of the man-ies), I believe God is involved in every little bit of details in our lives. We need to learn to listen to Him telling us what to do so that we can walk in where He wants us to walk. Then all the bits of this jigsaw puzzle call “my life” will fall into place.

And even if it does not fall into place like we see it with our physical eyes, I can tell you that you will still have this strange ‘calmness + peace’ that your faith eyes tells you that “it’s gonna be right just like how God say it is.” I can’t explain but I know because I’ve experienced it.

When you are inspired, you can inspire others as well.

How’s your journey with God? Has it been exciting?

Happy discovering!

Sharon

pointcast ep11

PointCast Ep11
my very own first! =)

journey of discovering calling...

Someone wrote to me and asked me to share my journey of discovering my calling. It took me a while to dig my brain, squeeze whatever brain juice i've left over these past two weeks and piece this together. if you are also in somewhat of a journey, then let's converse... =)


1. pray and contend with God to show to you.

I prayed for a long time time (months) before God showed me a glimpse of His destiny for me. it was just a round light shining on the stage – with no explanation. I was very excited even though I didn’t know what it meant because the vision showed me that God did not forget about me. He HAS something installed for me. knowing I have a destiny for the first time – I always remember this night – at rock zone prayer meeting. I was on duty as the projectionist.

2. pray through it.

so I started the journey of praying – for my destiny/purpose to be clearer. As I pray, people started to come along to drop bits and pieces along the way that the puzzle forms to be clearer and I know it’s artistes related. So I started by praying for artistes. One night I was really praying and crying out to God for the entertainment industry that I got so tired I fell asleep and that night, God showed me a vision of what he can do in the industry. I was so excited and spurred on praying for the vision to come to pass.

3. try and discover.

I started to try different things related to my vision. Tryout being recorded for video interview, tryout to be host for the PointCast, running many different kinds of events - just to discover what I like and not like. I believe that if it’s our passion or calling, we would be graced in this area or at least like it. so trying different departments and tasks and projects helps me discover what kind of person I am too. And narrow down those that are not along the path. Never try never know.

4. faithful in what is before me currently.

Meanwhile, I continue to do what’s assigned for me in the church. leading the dance team helps me to ‘deal’ with artistic people. Each dance performance/project molds me to better “produce” a production n coming out with the idea of a performance. And I can see that I’ve become sharper in this area each time – making the production clearer and improving.

5. keep a journal.

Keeping a journal of our process keeps us excited. Each time God speaks or show you something or a vision, write it down. During times when you are discouraged, you can read back and reminded of God’s hand upon your life. And you can also see how much progression you’ve improved or not. I was walking in popular and saw this notebook with the word “ABSURD” at the cover. I knew I have to buy it, filling the white pages with the things of God. God’s vision is absurdly bigger than I can imagine or execute then but keep it for the future. These are my Nehemiah plans. When God open the right door, I can tell the person exactly what I want to do – my proposal was completely revealed to me previously!

6. evaluation

Always always check your motives, desires, attitudes and actions. Sometimes our desires or ‘passion’ can consume us, overtaking God’s place in our lives. Always check your heart. My prayer to God is that I don’t want to gain the dream and lose my soul or place in heaven. If it’s from God, everything will be according to HIS time, HIS place, HIS decisions. The moment I feel that I’m pushing Him to do it when I want it the way I want it, then I will draw my reins, dropped to my knees, repent and tell myself to obey God. The dream should never lord over us or God’s place in our lives. I was recently doing a research on famous people in the industry – many of them started out as Christians, singing in church choirs and got spotted in church but soon their talent became their God after they became famous. Forgetting God’s goodness – Destiny’s Child (taken from the books of Isaiah), Beyonce, Usher, Britney, Jessica Simpson, and many more. My calling is reach artiste. If I’m not right, I will end up being influenced by the world than influencing the world.

7. hearing God.

I never take actions unless God speaks. If I do not hear a specific word from God, I will soak a lot of prayers into it then make a call – I believe in decisions within prayer. God called me to work in this office. I wanted to leave many times wanting to work in the industry but it’s God that called me to work here so I stay here until god say move. Then I move. No matter how stubborn or rebellious or angry or emotional I am, I have a special place for god’s word – this is like special permission pass I gave to God – when he speak, no matter what state of emotion I am, I will obey. If I’m offended with someone, if God speak to me or my pastor speak about it, no matter how angry I am, I will obey, asking God for the grace to do it.

God is the center of all the above. If you submit to Him, everything will fall into place. If you shift his position, the destiny is short-lived, digressed, distracted or will not come to its full pass…

Keep the main thing the main thing.

I know I sound like its easy and do it all but practice makes it easier the next time we do it.

I’ve taken this journey over 6 years – there was once i asked God why is this journey so long. God showed me the many times in my life that I did not want to obey therefore I hindered His work in my life. That’s why it took so long. That night I cried like a baby realizing that it’s my own doing that like the Israelites, the journey of 40 days took 40 years because of rebellion.

Not sure if this is what you are expecting but I hope it helps.

up2sharon

CAMPUS WEEKEND 08!

all your LGs that prayed and put together the presentation, i really salute u guys for being so faithful to what God has spoken to you! it was amazing weekend and i really felt God's presence was so evident! Chinese Service was the most happening!! i think all the LGs spoke chinese in some ways - steven k even RAPPED in chinese! i'm so touched by the sincerity of everyone!
of course creative life put together an amazing production too...

one thing PC mentioned really stucked to me...
how many of you remember your grandparents' name?
how many of you remember your great grandparents' name?
in about 3 generations, you will be totally forgotten - even by your own family. make an impact while u still can. not just what will ppl remember about you

PC spoke to the 3 age group:
below 17yrs old - PREPARE HARD
prepare yourself towards campus so that you can make a difference

17-25 years old - LIVE LOUD
it is really so important to live out loud when we have the chance to do it. else time passed so fast. i wished i'd made a difference...

above 25 - LEAD RIGHT
like it or not, the younger ones always look up to the older ones. set the working culture right so that they see how working life can be in faith! don't ever think it will not affect you - the current campus generation will be the boss of your children!

*my testimony poster!
there were altogether 12 pcs. i thank God i pushed myself to do it. i was really encouraged reading all these ppl's testimony. like encouragement overdose or more like in one big dose. each of them allow God work in their lives and now they see things different.
when i wrote mine, i really cant connect it wif campus except that i was sad and wished i' d it different - i did mine last so in case cant make it then nvm mar.. but i did it by 4am. after i finish writing it, i close my eyes to pray wanted to ask God if this is the way He wanted me to write it, and i fell into deep sleep! hahha.... ooppps.. sorry lord...

ryan - the male that co-habit with me...


he is such a cutie!