Be grateful...

At the end of this year, as we look back and felt that we’ve not done much or we’ve not done enough, well, if you would examine your year closely, you WILL find traces of God and footprints God had left in various times, especially those times you’ve called Him.

I give thanks to Him when PC asked me to start the new cell in IMU. It’s all new to me and believe me, they are great people, but being in the midst of a bunch of medical students, you’ll definitely feel kinda lost in their conversations! At least I was… But I thank God that as I prayed and persevere and contend for a breakthrough, He answered my prayers. There was a turnaround in the relationship between the imu girls and me in the journey of discipleship as they begin to allow God to work in their lives. One of them even said she did not want to miss the discipleship time! That was an evidence of God being real to that girl. I believe that God is going to do greater works in this uni and that the girls will arise and make a difference in where they are – in IMU, in their family, with their friends!

I also give thanks to God to ALL His interventions in the dance ministry. This year, as I begin to lead the dance ministry, I was determined to let God be the leader of this team and ministry and truly God has been good. He’s brought different people to share the load, He gave me visions and answers on to how to run the way He wants to. At the time we were suppose to do the dance on the song ‘Shackles’ in July and we didn’t have thots on the introduction, God gave me a VISION, literally, I saw how to do it. There were different breakthroughs happening among the dancers. A few of us were challenged by wanting to make a difference, we went to take classes and improve the skill level of the team.

And even the recent Christmas performance was another breakthrough for us. Many years, we’ve just did dance with a Christmas song. But this year, thru God’s inspiration, we wanted to tell the gospel through the dance! I was away for 3 weeks and when I came back 2 weeks before Christmas weekend, I realized that the dance was not ready and being a normal person, I panicked and I prayed. Now, if what you’re doing is of God, He will make it happen. Believe it, all the choreography and the whole show was kind of revealed to the people involved and it was done in about TWO days. The Christmas dance that we did was done in 2 days, practiced in 2 weeks and it did tell about the gospel of why we celebrate Christmas. Isn’t God real? Isn’t God’s splendor revealed? I believe that this year was just a hint of what God can do with the team but next year, He will bring the ministry to another level in skill and in spirit.

Here’s a scripture to encourage you.
In Isaiah 49:3-4, He (God) said to me, "You are my servant, Israel, in whom i will display my splendor."
But i said, "I have labored to no purpose; I have spent my strength in vain and for nothing. Yet what is due me is in the LORD's hand, and my reward is with my God."

When you think carefully, you will realize that whatever you’ve done for Him, it’s not in vain. Even if you just fetched some people, wrote an encouragement note, shared a testimony or gave a hug to assure someone, it will not avail to nothing for God will use it to display His splendor! Are you looking for those traces of Him? Look closely and you will see those traces of God all through the year and He promise that He WILL continue to do greater things in the coming year.

Have u thank God yet?

=)

Christmas is Christ....mas

Do u why we can be so merry? that's bcos Christmas is Christ....mas. it starts with christ. it's about Him. that's something to rejoice about! =)

tis the season to celebrate, not just partying. it's a season i really learnt lots about God's love thru His acts and faitfhfulness in always bringing me thru the many incidents in life. many times, we search for God when we needed a float to gasp for breath when storm and waves aldy came. but my God is so good that He prep me what's coming and provided me a way out or the boat to sit in so that when the storm come, i'm safely assured bcos i can be confident of My God. Are u able to say that too??

taste n know that He is good....


like the flying hair? hehe.... great job, foong! the ribbons is a good idea!
i'm quite happy with this year's as the dance ministry had a small breakthru in trying out for this new way of speaking God. hehe.... well, next year we shall haf a greater breakthru. m toiling with the idea of doing another dance project next year about living life or maybe about choosing this God or something like that. we'll c what God is about to do thru us! =)

We are the reason that He gave His life......

Steven called me one morning and ask me whether can i help me to do a video with the song 'we are the reason' with clips of Jesus' life. Little did i know that God has His plan in impacting me with it.

honestly, i didnt watch the passion movie when the church had it, coz i know i would not be able to take the 'grossness' and blood and all those. so i didnt join the movie watching peeps. but God has His way of making His plans work.... now that i have to do the video, i HAD TO WATCH IT IN DETAIL - OVER AND OVER AGAIN FOR LIKE A WEEK!!! - brilliant, God... heheheh..... on top of that, i had to do a kids version- another week of watching jesus dying on the cross!! ohhahaha...

i cried. yes, for like 3 days doing the passion! knowing the kind of life Christ had to go thru to forgive my sins. even when i watch narnia after that, i cried as i watch the kids movie - remembering Christ's sacrifice, remembering God's plan for a movie to push Harry Potter off the charts! What on earth am i doing? or have been doing? in comparison to what Christ did, it was nothing. it amounts to nothing at all. sigh....

and then something happened. someone accused me of something which i felt she needs to take responsibilities. i felt so injusticed, so wronged. that's when i remember Christ's sacrifice and the injustice upon himself. he took it on and allow God to be His Judge. tho hard it was, i swallowed the injustice, swallowed the desire to smack her and complain and wail and such... i put it all aside and prayed to Christ and asked Him for the grace to that which is God's will. i picked up the phone, sms her and reconciled - we are called to be minister reconciliation. Christ did not walk all the way to the cross to be nailed there so that we can wail at brothers and sisters or smack them becos we felt like injustice.

it took a TON of effort to push all the fleshly desires aside to willfully reconcile - especially when one felt wronged! but i did it. i want to psuh myrself to fight the right kind of fight and put others aside. by God's grace i felt i did the right thing.

i wish i could tell u that inside me exploded with joy and rainbows appeared or miracles happened - but it did not. doing the right thing is just doing the right thing, it's not something extra or something we did God a favor! if we dont do it, we sin but if we do it, we are just doing the right thing. and the more we are molded in the practice, the more we will see God is right.

but if u do wat is right and what God wants u to do, u know u'ld be honoring God.

1812 - pix, pic

before and after .
kids will always be kids! ahahhaha.....
if u noticed 2 guys among the girls, they were the lucky 'leaves' among the roses? =)

two very different kind of birthday girls, yet crossed life's path.

happy birthday, yc!

1812 - Yearly Event! =)

Birthdays! They come and go every year.
The sad thing about birthdays is not that it makes me feel older but that it reminds me again and again how little i've done every year.

S stacie o would say, 'there's gotta be more to life.'
What's the 'more' in my life? have i just been wasting my life away? it's been a question i've posted to myself many times. That's why, on my birthday, i gave each of my guest (mostly my girls) a stalk of rose.

they are like the rose, at the most beautiful stage of their life - carefree study time. if they do not bloom to their fullest, they r like a rose that's withered without blooming and time will not turn around and it will no longer be fresh flowers anymore.

i shared to them this vision that God gave me many years ago. hoping that they'ld get it and will begin to live loud, live life to the fullest! heheh...

neway, my bunch of roses withered the next day! how short it lived. if u r reading this, then, learn to make the most of life.... remember the roses....

I'm Back! Made It There, Made It Back!

First First of all, i must tell u that if u ask God first if u could go for a trip, u'll know whether it'll be a blessed trip or not - like Jonah. I asked and i felt God is ok with me taking this trip and after that answer, everything in this trip flowed along like river... heheh.... from the people going, to the expenses, to driving at strange land, to adapting, to the weather and all in all, it's been a blessed trip, it's been a testimonial trip. i even saw everything i wanted to see - whales, dolphins, penguins, hot springs - of course, i prayed that i'll see it and indeed i saw it. Ask and u shall see, seek and u shall find, knock and the door shall be opened.

Now, let me introduce u guys to my cute little nephew, Matthews, next to him is obviously my cousin, Mag (his mom). He's sooooooooooooooo (got the idea??) CUTE!!
Absolutely meaty and tempting me to knead him like kneading dough!!! hahahaha......

Mag kept telling him to wait for me coz i was late and it's past his bedtime.
So, I arrived and quickly got 3 shots of him before she dodoi him off... hehehe... That was my first nite in NZ! Memorable start! heheheh...


This is Adrian and his wife, Helen. My nice related folks in NZ. Oh, Adrian is Mag's bro, my cousin too... they are expecting a baby!!! i'm so happy for them! Yay, i'm gonna haf more little cuzzies babies.... eehhehe...







Maybe some of u guys will remember Calvin Hong - he's grown - sideways! ahahahah..... look at the burger he ate for SUPPER!! Now, u know why.

His 4 friends are the kind peeps that took me to my unc's place. really funny and *talented people. if u r reading this, u know why i put the asterisk! hahahahahah....

Sheeps: Cute and cuddly FROM AFAR!! Smelly and weird if found too near me! heheh...

To all sheep lovers, no offence, just not use to them.


But to all my manja sheep-disciples, i love u all very much hor.... heeheh...


















Just a few things that I'm not kidding you:

(a) that is a real whale's tail. caught the last shot before it dived... but blame the ship for being so rocky.

(b) it was really really cold... sometimes i wore 2 tees, 1 long sleeves, 1 jeans jacket and then the white nike windbreaker!

(c) those lazy looking black patches are real sea lions - lazing on the rock. what a life!

(d) me n ju were chased by the ducks at the pond! we wanna chow but we were on a 2-person bicycle - uphill - we tried our best! whew...... that was real close!

(e) believe it or not, i was takin their picture when aunty cindy turned and whacked ju on the head (mom and daughter), i was shocked! but wait aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa min - there was a real big mosquito! hahaha....

(f) we drove around in the dark of the nite, hunting for this road - found it, took a picture but too dark to see the difference so shot the street sign instead! hahaha.... so much for breaking world records!

(g) salmon farm! yummm!!! stop, ate and tah pau - met some penang-ites there! see the circled tray? it was there when we arrived but when we left, the tray was gone - emptied! hahahaha.... too good too be true for salmon lovers!

(h) that gold color mountain - Cadbury's Crunchie Bars!! Was at the Cadbury Factory - the smelll.... ooohhhh..... the chocolates.... oooohhhh .... enuf said! but i think i love the Nestle's Willy Wonka's Whipple Scrumptious Fudgmellow Delight - REALLY NICE - anyone going australia or new zealnd or sees it, please get me the red and purple bar!! thanks in advance! hehehe...

(i) as usual, that's a real yellow-eyed penguin. Rarest in the world. Shot from a close distance. his name is 'old-fellow' hahaha.... coz he's been there many mating season and still can't find a mate!

(j) saved the best for last. this one, i really am not kidding you. when i saw this street sign, i thot, oh ya, oomaru, penguin town, lots tourists, hence the sign. but, i seriously, seriously SAW with my own two eyes, world's smallest penguins - BLUE PENGUINSSSSS - CROSSING THE STREET!!! yes, i was bewildered! yes, it was such a funny sight, yes, i didnt take pic - coz flash spoils their eyes, peeps, be educated! hehehe...










For all my dear disciples and all of u who were privileged to receive my sms the other day, this is the place to build my dream cottage and please come complete with lots of white roses. =)
Ciyeng has aldy started off with a snowoman outside the cottage, so the rest of you, please..... heheheheh....

last memorable picture.... this is where i drop mei fung's camera, cracked the display, now praying that it can be fixed. protected it for 15 days, 3 days before coming home .... accident... slipped from my fingers....OUCH!!!!


Overall, the trip was absolutely beautiful. i love all the small towns and stressed at all the big cities. hehhehe.... beautiful country but malaysia is the best!! ecf is the best!! mamak is the best!! late nites is the best!! dance team is the best!! most of all, this is home - this makes it the best-est!! hehehehehe.....

that's all for now. for more pix and more stories, look for me another time.

two of my girls not in the previous pictures... Ina & Doreen

these are a few of the girls that i invested my life into. they are the uprising leaders! watch out! u shall see great and mighty things of God in their lives!

watch out for these miracle workers in the hospitals.

A Kind of Fulfilment

someone sent me a sms yesterday and says that i should check out her blog coz my name's there...
so, i went to check it out, http://ciyeng_yo.blogs.friendster.com/knowing_is_one_thing_doin/
when i read the post, i was so touch, i almost cry at my table in the office...
sometimes, it's not about being great that makes me continue doing what i do, but appreciations like this and knowing that i touched lives, elevate me to cloud 9s! thanks, girl, for letting me know u appreciate me... =)

A Kiwi Experience

Oh, well, New Zealand here i come!
Finally, after years of wanting to visit this country that my uncle migrated to, i'm going there! Now! 3 days from NOW! oohh... i can't wait anymore. Weeks ago, as i browse thru all the new zealand sites and maps and reading the Lonely Planet Guide, i was still not believing that i'm going. even when i receive the plane ticket, am still trying to be not too excited. it's now finally here! oh my oh my....
in the coming 18 days, i'll be travelling with juliet, aunty cindy and husband and ju's aunt. erm.... in case u wonder, it didnt really started out as a trip with aunts and uncs. it started with my mum wanting to go with my aunties (oh, maybe it did start with the aunts-my aunts!) and i was brain-washing my mum to go, to go. so, they finally decided to go - yahoo! but then crack! the bad news - they wanna go during the church camp week!! sigh.... i would never miss the church camp! and i dont want to miss it. so, i kind of decide that i'll just travel on my own and be the adventurous woman (tho' freaking out inside) but somehow, i felt as tho God's peace is with me, i mean i prayed and asked God whether can i go or not in the firsts place. So, then God brought Ju who also wanted to go! alrite! now i got TWO Adventurous Women! hehehe....
then her parents wanna tag along..... then her aunt wanna tag along.... oh well....
but nothing can dim this excitement as the days are coming closer and closer!
i'll be landing at auckland, then going to taupo, meeting maori(s) at rotorua, flying south to christchurch, straight to kaikoura's whale watching, oooh... hanmer spring for a spa day out, continue on the lake tekapo, to the famous mt cook, reaching queenstown - m still trying to pursuade ju to do the bungy jump, of course must go to te anau for some glow worm, and the ever recommended milford sound ride, from there, to dunedin to visit a some students and the choc factory, dropping by to visit some penguins at oomaru, back to christchurch for some shopping. by this time, i'll be dead tired but most happy - time to come home! oh, and did i mention, broke and bankrupt? hehehe..... but i'm sure the trip is worth it.
by then, i would have missed my mum horribly - not seeing her for SIX long weeks..... washing my own clothes, eating bread and maggi the six long weeks........................................

am i a contender?

we've not had a church camp since years...
but last week, once again, ecf regroup to port dickson for a contender church camp. sometimes i do wonder whether if i am really a contender.
i guess like pc says, when i fix my eyes on God, i'm quite walking-on-water-faith, i'm a contender but if i don't fix my eyes at Him, i tend to look at the wind and the storm and start this sinking feeling...
one thing i really pick up from the sessions is that 'if your top layer is peeled off, what would be revealed underneath'. it's kind of like the throne question pc posted to us 'if you follow the trace of your heart, it would lead u to a throne and who is on that throne?'
i guess many times it's me on the throne.. but i am trying most times to dethrone myself once the red alert button is blinking. = )
so back to the onion question, what's underneath?, will your character be able to sustain your success? i'm still pondering over that question and still wondering if my character's good enough?
many times and many things, i don't know. but one thing i know, if i ask God, He'll tell me and that is what i need desperately.
that's where i get all the answers to those disciples with many questions (ahem! u know who u r) and to the many times i lead cells. i don't go to cells all charged and all confidence and all knowing... i go in fear and trembling as tho walking on water knowing only that all i need to do is fixing my eyes of God and He'll use me! that's what i call trusting in Him.

Dance Voice

Since i've shared this during snl, it's not much of a secret anymore...
i was asking God for dreams and visions and then i felt He just dropped this whole plan into my mind/heart.

to do a dance fest for malaysian dance crazies. a bridge to dancers in malaysia - to come for the workshops.
to be 'louder in the dance scenes'.

i felt the plan was quite complete and i even have people in mind i think can invite to help conduct workshops... randall flinn, wordsinmotion, hillsong, ps julius and eileen, talentsinC, jane shortall, victor voon, urban groove, eximus, jayne, melissa, duaspace.. i mean all these people i have in mind... i know it's kinda like a dream away...

wanna do a controlled secular dance workshop for anyone and not just christians. one that can bridge any dance frenzies to some christians and strike a friendship with dancers.

not just what to call it yet "dance dream", "dance it all out", "dance project", "dance voice" or "dance a passion"

do like a weekend thing 2 to 3 days of workshops on - hiphop, breakdance, street dance, street commercial, footwork, jazz or even ballet.

during lunch or dinner time, show cut outs of the dance movies' ending scenes. those scenes where it's most touching or most challenging that can inspire people to dance - u got served, honey, save the last dance, center stage, dance with me, and some of the local dance competitions i shot.

promote dance without sensuality... creativity comes from God. i believe that ideas that God give can bring a greater impact than sex can bring to a music video!

end with a dance showcase from various workshops, or with a dance-drama to share a testimony or giving the mic to pastor/pc to share or dance jam.

not just reaching dancers, but it's about redeeming the industry for God!

the thing is, if it's just a dream, it will feel as though in the air or kinda far. but i know it's from God because it feel like a dream WITHIN MY REACH!! as though all i need is a key and the key is in God's hand and God is with me! wow!!

Oh, God, give me the grace in this dream you've deposited in me! Lord, You make a mark in the dance industry and take it back. In Jesus' name, Amen!