We are the reason that He gave His life......

Steven called me one morning and ask me whether can i help me to do a video with the song 'we are the reason' with clips of Jesus' life. Little did i know that God has His plan in impacting me with it.

honestly, i didnt watch the passion movie when the church had it, coz i know i would not be able to take the 'grossness' and blood and all those. so i didnt join the movie watching peeps. but God has His way of making His plans work.... now that i have to do the video, i HAD TO WATCH IT IN DETAIL - OVER AND OVER AGAIN FOR LIKE A WEEK!!! - brilliant, God... heheheh..... on top of that, i had to do a kids version- another week of watching jesus dying on the cross!! ohhahaha...

i cried. yes, for like 3 days doing the passion! knowing the kind of life Christ had to go thru to forgive my sins. even when i watch narnia after that, i cried as i watch the kids movie - remembering Christ's sacrifice, remembering God's plan for a movie to push Harry Potter off the charts! What on earth am i doing? or have been doing? in comparison to what Christ did, it was nothing. it amounts to nothing at all. sigh....

and then something happened. someone accused me of something which i felt she needs to take responsibilities. i felt so injusticed, so wronged. that's when i remember Christ's sacrifice and the injustice upon himself. he took it on and allow God to be His Judge. tho hard it was, i swallowed the injustice, swallowed the desire to smack her and complain and wail and such... i put it all aside and prayed to Christ and asked Him for the grace to that which is God's will. i picked up the phone, sms her and reconciled - we are called to be minister reconciliation. Christ did not walk all the way to the cross to be nailed there so that we can wail at brothers and sisters or smack them becos we felt like injustice.

it took a TON of effort to push all the fleshly desires aside to willfully reconcile - especially when one felt wronged! but i did it. i want to psuh myrself to fight the right kind of fight and put others aside. by God's grace i felt i did the right thing.

i wish i could tell u that inside me exploded with joy and rainbows appeared or miracles happened - but it did not. doing the right thing is just doing the right thing, it's not something extra or something we did God a favor! if we dont do it, we sin but if we do it, we are just doing the right thing. and the more we are molded in the practice, the more we will see God is right.

but if u do wat is right and what God wants u to do, u know u'ld be honoring God.