contending for my rod to bud... let it be align to your will...

as i was driving to work, i was thinking in my mind...

why cant i make things simple in my life?
why not live like everyone else. just be normal.
why must i contend to be different?
why must i soak every decision in prayer before i decide to move?
why must i be at the mercy of God whether he open the door of opportunity for me or not?
just live like everyone else. just be an 'everybody else' - born - live - die.
is it cos i'm not being contented?

but...
when as i watch the team did a final run through for the dance who am i before snl, i cried... tears welled up in my eyes as i felt God's presence before the dance. last year, we had a next level with more2life+anf where we tell message with dance instead of song for dance so we incorporated multimedia, 2 songs and scriptures and sharing to tell a message of God. but this year, we breakthrough that into a dance that ministers to ppl - that draws ppl to worship God... i was so proud of the team. i am so proud of my team. =)to see this team turnaround is one of the 'achievements' in my life. dance ministry used to be a performance ministry - when there's an event, there's a dance performance, we gather ppl and start practicing for the performance. after perform, that's it. no class no existence.
but now, there's a committed team - we dance together, pray together, cry together and share lives and reach lives together.
but now, there are classes - outreach class as an extension of church to the community, kids class as an extension to reaching children, core class that helps the ppl with a dance talent to improve and to build each other. so many ppl come to our classes - of course our next level is to bridge them... which we need to improve - one step at a time...

but...
how many of you gets messages like this...?
here i post two for you to have an idea but u can see more at my comments at this post ("...did i manage to bring you the light of Hope?...") Nov 06. Is your life worth living?

i post this note he gave me on my wall with the other notes i cherished to remind myself not to give up on him...

how many of you gets a chance to touch these people's lives? thoughts? whack them and still be partners in a dream together?i'm touched and thank god unceasingly when i see them walk in freedom, in their dreams. fulfilled and living for the better.

it's not because of what i do but because of the prayers i soak in... although many times ppl did not acknowledge i did something in their lives but to know that i tried makes me able to sleep sound at night. i rather this than having sleepless night of what i did not do that lose them to the schemes of the enemies...what would u choose to do? which would you prefer?? not much of a choice right?
but if u see those around you slipping and u have no feeling at all, i think all the more u need to pray that you hearts are not callous to mercy........

Quotes:
A man is no bigger than his prayer life.
Whenever God determines to do a great work, He first sets His people to pray.
Man is never so tall as when he kneels before God - never so great as when he humbles himself before God. and the man who kneels to God can stand up to anything.
The angel fetched Peter out of prison but it was prayer that fetched the angel.
More things are wrought by prayer than this world of dreams of.

EMBRACING HIS PERSON, ENJOYING HIS PRESENCE.