What an interesting day...

Ok. I think today is interesting. At least for me, it's interesting. Interesting is personally defined as I learnt something new or discover a new experience. Personal definition.

So as usual I went to church but after church came to pc house for discipleship. Today we stool turn to share about our job. Although I vaguely know what some of them do but today I get to hear them and ask them question. I discovered that Su Leen does clinical trial, mostly with cancerous patience. I learnt that Charlene worked as IT departmental had before. Now I know that Carolyn always thought of doing IT but ended up as music teacher. All new information for me after years of being in the same group.

Then I hate a one to one session with pc where we talked through some challenges and work out some working together on the production. I feel like there's light at the end of the tunnel. An opening at the dead end I thought I've reached. It's weird. I'm still trying to comprehend the situation and how to walk around and through it. Truly a weird feeling.

And then, more interesting is that Neil Batiancila came to cook for pc because he and Ying are meeting pc for pre marital counseling. Of course they invited me to dinner. Standing there in the kitchen, seeing Neil and Ying cook and pc's occasional banter there and there and joining into the conversation with them are all more or less first time experience for me. I'm close tonic but not to close to Neil and I don't think I ever seen Neil n Ying in dating mode. Hahaha.. But interesting dinner. The food is good. Verdict is - Neil can cook. Maybe u already know that. Hahaha...

Ok. The night has not ended. Kareem went to fetch Kel from the airport and when he drop Kel, pc invited him to come in for a round of board game! Yeah.. Not touched a board game for months.. I think it was before pc went away.. That would be like march..? Wondering what game and how it will be like. Playing game for me is an intentional step because generally I too insecure to lose. I can don't win or be somewhere in the middle but I don't want to be at the bottom. Me n my issues lah... So usually I opt to be the game master in all the previous year camps. Hahaha... One step at a time. One step... =)

Off from tomoro onwards.. Yahoo.. Off days off days are the best days!

ok... I LOST HORRIBLY playing with pc n kareem. horribly.... hahaha...

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My New Green Watch

Recently, there was like thought that sneaked into my mind. 

I wanted to get a Baby-G watch and then the PC got a gift of a Baby-G and this one tiny thought sneaked in my mind ... "God wont care enough to bless u with one cos u dont deserve it." I immediately shrug it off and tell myself not to believe that because God also blessed me with many gifts from various people and I should not believe such lies! But few times the thought tries to sneak in again... 

i was looking at various models and fixing my budget and asking my friend's opinion if he got 'jalan' to buy such thing. then he just say that he'll get it for me. i was actually shocked plus the watch is like two hundred plus. as usual i told him no need it's ok and too expensive of a gift to receive. the next day he actually seriously went to search watch shops to get me one. 

other close friends started asking me like why and how come and questions... but deep inside i know it's God answering me and assuring me that HE remembers me and call me by my name. For someone that is insecure like me, constant assurance is much needed and HE do know me inside out.

Childhood

Was watching this series on the various journeys of the characters linked to this school for the delinquents.
As each episode unfold, the viewer are brought to see the story behind each child and how they end up in this school. One boy was forced to dress up s girl to serve alcohol to earn alcohol money for the father, another was left by the father, another brothers were beaten by the father and locked into dog cage when he go out.. Maybe there were drama elements but we can never be too shocked to know that that is happening. In the world.

But even the teachers have their own journeys.. One was a delinquent himself. Newly released from prison because he took the fall for his big brother who happens to be his brother in law so that the guy can take care of his I'll sister. Another had a controlling mother that loved him too much. Another was being controlled and manipulated by her foster mother to live her life as per her teeniest command spoken. Who say adults knows everything? Most adults knows nuts!

Their lives were all changed as they come to this school to be helped or to give help. The school is run by a pastor that is humbly very influential because he'd touched many lives. . Ironically, its a a church. A pastor. And s every one journey together, they discover new love, new hope, new way to live life and move on from their pasts.

The story has not finish but every time I watch an episode, I will be encouraged. My life is really not that bad and there needs to be real love in this world and not just fake love or love to manipulate others. Everyone deserves it.