I think i just realised something about myself: I dont like to lend things to ppl!
Not so much cos i'm selfish but more cos things that i owned are well-thought through 'asset' that i need for a certain purpose or cause ... down to the suitability of the size and capability per situation i will be in... with no duplicates or backup for it.
Just one piece of the puzzle to fit into one particular part in my life. and lending it out bring some form of 'cacat' or deformity or incomplete in my daily routine. not just bring inconvenience to my routines, it disrupts my life and worse if the borrower spoils it, scratches it, misuse it... sigh.. i will be terribly upset!! and when i need it and it's not here for me, i will be disrupted and then agitated! hahahahah.....
then ... does it mean i can dont lend things out to ppl? not really. just mean that i need to learn to live with myself and learn to live with other ppl in this world.. especially those around me. still got to lend some things to ppl cos i need to learn to share lor... *resign to fate. but one thing i definitely dont lend out so no need to ask is borrow my laptop. NO WAY. nah ah... not even when i'm not bringing it to travel with me. *sweet smile*
