genesis 28 vs genesis 32

i shared in office devotion today. this thot is something that's been in my mind for the past week and so i brought it to the table today.

first, i asked all of them. how did they come about to working in this office.
like for me, i remembered that during one of the youth camp in peacehaven, i felt God called me to serve Him. that was the second time i heard it and i know i needed to do something about it. i shared it with pas tim but he said there's no opening and he felt i should experience the secular world first. so i left it as it is but shortly after that, kay (administrator at that time) decide to resign n pastor called me if i'm still interested to work for church office. that's how i started. so i was very sure God called me to be there so each year when i struggle and want to leave, i know God reminds me that He's the one that'd calledit me there and unless He say i can leave, i stay put.

so each of them begin to share.
jude prayed and felt led to here.
beesean heard God asking her to stay.
yc knows God wanted her to work here but she didnt want to but God closed all the others doors for her so that she'd be sure this is where He wants her to be.
kel know God called him 25 years ago to play for Him.
neil, daniel, deborah, steven, cuz, pastor tim, pc....

each one had their own version of how god spoke to them, called them and hence all of us ended up here.
if u are here today, it would have been quite a sharing to hear each one's story. how God pulled each one to form today's team.

i shared from genesis 28 - jacob met God. he saw a vision of angels, hear God spoke to him but his interpretation of meeting God was to attain God's blessing. that's why his response to God was also in material - u give me 100%, i give u 10%.
that's why Jacob continued in his ways - from deceiving his brother to deceiving his father-in-law, gaining his advantages and he succeeded. from a career point of view, he made it.
but from God's point of view, Jacob's not made it YET.
God's not interested in just the 10% of Jacob's life.
God is interested in Jacob's 100%.
that's why in genesis 32, when God wrestled with Jacob all night - and he came out of it totally changed 100% this time - physically crippled, emotionally exhausted, spiritually transformed complete with a name changed to Israel.

we all heard God's call and came to work in this office.
1. if we are only thinking God is interested in grooming our skill alone then we are also thinking of the 10% cos God is interested in the 100% of us - he wants to mold us 100% to fit into the destiny He has for us.

2. if we have strayed from our calling, then we need to align ourselves back to first calling. if we think it's just a career stepping stone or the money is not good enough, or why do we have to work late or why do we need to attend all the services or why is it call serving and not working, then need to align ourselves back.
we are called to serve here by God because of His agenda, not our own agendas.
all the material things in the world can't fill the hole of relating with God.

my tot seems everywhere cos i got tot everywhere. haha...

"all gone" shooting....

last monday, we attempted and succeeded in shooting ourselves for our easter dance production!
it's our first effort in trying to make a MTV out of ourselves! hahah... it was A LOT OF EFFORT!!
stupid things we do makes it more funny and more stories to tell.

btw, come watch the final production this weekend!! i'm so excited!
here's some pictures to lol together...

with crazy leaders, u get a crazy team to do crazy things.
one of our most oft used phrase is "we're all in this together".
the other oft saying is this "we are one weird dance team" hhaha....
guess where it spillover from... of course from my leaders also lah.. ahaha...

group photo with our red-shirt-afro-hair director finally wrapped up at 1am or was it 2am? drained to the max.the thing we shouldnt have done was to wet the floor!!
it was too much work to wet t
he floor and after that we had no choice but to continue wetting the floor! ran out of water and we had to scoop for the mud water to wet the court! haahaha..... then we had to kneel on it, sit on it, eventually touch it with our hands!! ewwww....... such sacrifice we had to make for a short clip! hahhaha...
shooting individuals lip sync with the words from the song.
scary to have the camera right in front of your face! haha.. but i still like myself!

lyn-lyn's wedding

here's nai lin... so pretty. she was lyn-lyn's bridesmaid.
single. available.
that's all i want to say...


which would you want?

what if life is not a sum of all your choices but of ONE choice - which would you choose?

a. take the biggest leap into a a dream, only a possibility of a destiny. a leap into an imagined possibility. reality could be cruel. could be nothing.
b. swept off your feet into a more-real-than-hollywood love story. found or be found by the love of your life. love till death do us part.
c. a lifetime in peace without risk or adventure - but safe and sound through it all. just like everyone else.
d. stay put. stay where you are. persevere to make the best of the current and hopefully a little joy or a couple of thank yous will come of it.

give all you can to see what will come out even if it means to be a fool?
risk everything for a scary adventure?
just get married with the first person that proposed. have kids. live like everyone else?

i want to choose ... but i'm still at ....
it's a discontentment.
just give up the imagined because of the real reality?
it's a starving... for freedom

"Too Blessed To Be Stressed"

Think about them one at a time before going on to the next one. what makes you feel gooooood....


1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7.. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry)..
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15 The beach
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you
19 Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Lord, keep Your arm around my shoulder and Your hand over my mouth

"Too Blessed To Be Stressed"