was tidying my cupboard a month back and realize that i do have a lot of tee shirts. i think since that this pic, the height has increased. hahaha...
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my tee shirts
was tidying my cupboard a month back and realize that i do have a lot of tee shirts. i think since that this pic, the height has increased. hahaha...
have u ever been desperate enough to beg your "friends" for a desperate need?
i did it a few times in the past couple of weeks and all i got was this -
- they turned they back,
- told me they got much too,
- told me "you can do it wan lah"
- show a sorry-i-can't-help-u face,
- hardened their heart (as i feel the blow to my face),
- expecting me to pull off a miracle (on my own),
- expecting me to forgive them (cos i'm a church leader w/o emotions or stress like them),
- walked away,
- leaving me,
- buried alive,
- by myself.
it somehow brings a picture of someone standing at the edge WATCHING another person drowning in the pool - without wanting to do anything cos he/she cant help but let the fella drown lah - cos no strength to help other ppl.
hmm.. or maybe it's more like nobody actually care lah. drowning in the big pool all alone cos everyone busy trying to stay afloat in their own pool, why should anyone care of other pool, right?
it felt like a slap across the face to wake up from any more other expectations from "friends".
i wish i can dont need to forgive them and tell them to their faces that they just hurt me and i want to hurt them back and dont wan to love them anymore and they are not friends.
the tears that are flowing from my eyes now are brought by you, "friend".
i look left, look right, i see i am actually deserted to stand alone again. again, proven my theory on 'fending myself cos nobody will be there for you, my dear."
i'm warning everyone,
DON'T tell me "you can do it wan lah" or "u sure can wan" or "u are sharon wor, u can pull it thru" !!!
it sounds exactly like telling me "go drown by yourself in your own pool and dont bother me"
i am telling you now - i hate those sentences.
one more time i hear it i might lose control and shout at you.
all i am saying is if two person stress and stretched together can get the job done, why let one person stress over it and not get the job done?
whatever. tired. drained. dried. dont want to talk about it.
lei sei lei sie.
sharon, snap out of it.
okok... maybe i've been emo and harsh and angry when i wrote the above. ah but then.... god provided a way out d! so i've no excuse not to let go and move on, right? cos God is good and faithful to me... ops..
i did it a few times in the past couple of weeks and all i got was this -
- they turned they back,
- told me they got much too,
- told me "you can do it wan lah"
- show a sorry-i-can't-help-u face,
- hardened their heart (as i feel the blow to my face),
- expecting me to pull off a miracle (on my own),
- expecting me to forgive them (cos i'm a church leader w/o emotions or stress like them),
- walked away,
- leaving me,
- buried alive,
- by myself.
it somehow brings a picture of someone standing at the edge WATCHING another person drowning in the pool - without wanting to do anything cos he/she cant help but let the fella drown lah - cos no strength to help other ppl.
hmm.. or maybe it's more like nobody actually care lah. drowning in the big pool all alone cos everyone busy trying to stay afloat in their own pool, why should anyone care of other pool, right?
it felt like a slap across the face to wake up from any more other expectations from "friends".
i wish i can dont need to forgive them and tell them to their faces that they just hurt me and i want to hurt them back and dont wan to love them anymore and they are not friends.
the tears that are flowing from my eyes now are brought by you, "friend".
i look left, look right, i see i am actually deserted to stand alone again. again, proven my theory on 'fending myself cos nobody will be there for you, my dear."
i'm warning everyone,
DON'T tell me "you can do it wan lah" or "u sure can wan" or "u are sharon wor, u can pull it thru" !!!
it sounds exactly like telling me "go drown by yourself in your own pool and dont bother me"
i am telling you now - i hate those sentences.
one more time i hear it i might lose control and shout at you.
all i am saying is if two person stress and stretched together can get the job done, why let one person stress over it and not get the job done?
whatever. tired. drained. dried. dont want to talk about it.
lei sei lei sie.
sharon, snap out of it.
okok... maybe i've been emo and harsh and angry when i wrote the above. ah but then.... god provided a way out d! so i've no excuse not to let go and move on, right? cos God is good and faithful to me... ops..
notting hill
just finished watching the movie - notting hill.
the joy, the love and ............. the romance in the movie is really touching.
an old movie but it still does leave an after taste in you.
if you've ever watch the movie, especially the ending, does it makes you wonder and think - does all relationships end so sweetly, happily ever after, with a love song playing at the background, lying with the look of peace and contentment, a devoted to each other couple? did u ever wonder?
i just wonder because i've watched too many broken relationships, betrayed marriages and couple fights in my short lifetime, not to mentioned the endless input from all the drama, movies and tv. even gross, sick, bloody ones.
where is the music in that?
oh well.
i guess, like in FIREPROOF, you've got to work for it to happen - the peace, the contentment and the devotion to each other - not so sure if there would be any romantic love song at the background all the time though... haahaha..
wish u all a sweet dream tonight.
the joy, the love and ............. the romance in the movie is really touching.
an old movie but it still does leave an after taste in you.
if you've ever watch the movie, especially the ending, does it makes you wonder and think - does all relationships end so sweetly, happily ever after, with a love song playing at the background, lying with the look of peace and contentment, a devoted to each other couple? did u ever wonder?
i just wonder because i've watched too many broken relationships, betrayed marriages and couple fights in my short lifetime, not to mentioned the endless input from all the drama, movies and tv. even gross, sick, bloody ones.
where is the music in that?
oh well.
i guess, like in FIREPROOF, you've got to work for it to happen - the peace, the contentment and the devotion to each other - not so sure if there would be any romantic love song at the background all the time though... haahaha..
wish u all a sweet dream tonight.
stress??
what to do when u are stress? if you cant beat it, then work around it for a little bit:
- get sporting friends to do dress up together with you and go church service or go out on a surprise girlish date and do girlish things and talk girlish talks and do the dumb blond laugh and take all the pictures u want to take wherever u want to and not think about the list of things to do.
- dressing up makes you feel more confident than the person with the unfinished pile of work.
- having friends to laugh together let you let go and remember your carefree self again
- have a good meal just to pamper yourself a little bit for the hard work you've put in to whatever we were doing.
*me and all my raw food. one day i told yc i think i no more like jap food cos jelak with it d. two days after that, i had this craving for raw salmon and the next day we went raw food hunting! hahaha.... me and my fickle-mind-ed-ness-es and cant-wait-to-attack-my food-face.
john grisham
went for book hunt yesterday, i wanted to get stress-less books like enid blyton - the naughtiest girl series or the new added-on malory towers series or St Clare's series or the faraway tree series but then the new range has become soooo expensive RM30 per book when i used to buy it like RM11.90 previously. new cover so new price. so end up i didnt buy any because i feel ripped off!! hahaha... then pass by carrefour and saw this. RM33.55. erm.... i guess it's ok for this price kwa... plus i dun have this in my collection of JG.
Grisham's book that i have or have read includes:
The Broker
Bleachers
The King of Torts
The Summons
The Brethren
The Testament
The Street Lawyer
The Partner
The Chamber
The Firm
A Time to Kill
my favs of JG that i've read at least 5 times
The Client
The Pelican Brief
The Rainmaker
The Runaway Jury
Shun, when u go to another bookfair, please help me stock up enid blyton... thanks!
