two of my girls not in the previous pictures... Ina & Doreen
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these are a few of the girls that i invested my life into. they are the uprising leaders! watch out! u shall see great and mighty things of God in their lives!
A Kind of Fulfilment
someone sent me a sms yesterday and says that i should check out her blog coz my name's there...
so, i went to check it out, http://ciyeng_yo.blogs.friendster.com/knowing_is_one_thing_doin/
when i read the post, i was so touch, i almost cry at my table in the office...
sometimes, it's not about being great that makes me continue doing what i do, but appreciations like this and knowing that i touched lives, elevate me to cloud 9s! thanks, girl, for letting me know u appreciate me... =)
so, i went to check it out, http://ciyeng_yo.blogs.friendster.com/knowing_is_one_thing_doin/
when i read the post, i was so touch, i almost cry at my table in the office...
sometimes, it's not about being great that makes me continue doing what i do, but appreciations like this and knowing that i touched lives, elevate me to cloud 9s! thanks, girl, for letting me know u appreciate me... =)
A Kiwi Experience
Oh, well, New Zealand here i come!
Finally, after years of wanting to visit this country that my uncle migrated to, i'm going there! Now! 3 days from NOW! oohh... i can't wait anymore. Weeks ago, as i browse thru all the new zealand sites and maps and reading the Lonely Planet Guide, i was still not believing that i'm going. even when i receive the plane ticket, am still trying to be not too excited. it's now finally here! oh my oh my....
in the coming 18 days, i'll be travelling with juliet, aunty cindy and husband and ju's aunt. erm.... in case u wonder, it didnt really started out as a trip with aunts and uncs. it started with my mum wanting to go with my aunties (oh, maybe it did start with the aunts-my aunts!) and i was brain-washing my mum to go, to go. so, they finally decided to go - yahoo! but then crack! the bad news - they wanna go during the church camp week!! sigh.... i would never miss the church camp! and i dont want to miss it. so, i kind of decide that i'll just travel on my own and be the adventurous woman (tho' freaking out inside) but somehow, i felt as tho God's peace is with me, i mean i prayed and asked God whether can i go or not in the firsts place. So, then God brought Ju who also wanted to go! alrite! now i got TWO Adventurous Women! hehehe....
then her parents wanna tag along..... then her aunt wanna tag along.... oh well....
but nothing can dim this excitement as the days are coming closer and closer!
i'll be landing at auckland, then going to taupo, meeting maori(s) at rotorua, flying south to christchurch, straight to kaikoura's whale watching, oooh... hanmer spring for a spa day out, continue on the lake tekapo, to the famous mt cook, reaching queenstown - m still trying to pursuade ju to do the bungy jump, of course must go to te anau for some glow worm, and the ever recommended milford sound ride, from there, to dunedin to visit a some students and the choc factory, dropping by to visit some penguins at oomaru, back to christchurch for some shopping. by this time, i'll be dead tired but most happy - time to come home! oh, and did i mention, broke and bankrupt? hehehe..... but i'm sure the trip is worth it.
by then, i would have missed my mum horribly - not seeing her for SIX long weeks..... washing my own clothes, eating bread and maggi the six long weeks........................................
Finally, after years of wanting to visit this country that my uncle migrated to, i'm going there! Now! 3 days from NOW! oohh... i can't wait anymore. Weeks ago, as i browse thru all the new zealand sites and maps and reading the Lonely Planet Guide, i was still not believing that i'm going. even when i receive the plane ticket, am still trying to be not too excited. it's now finally here! oh my oh my....
in the coming 18 days, i'll be travelling with juliet, aunty cindy and husband and ju's aunt. erm.... in case u wonder, it didnt really started out as a trip with aunts and uncs. it started with my mum wanting to go with my aunties (oh, maybe it did start with the aunts-my aunts!) and i was brain-washing my mum to go, to go. so, they finally decided to go - yahoo! but then crack! the bad news - they wanna go during the church camp week!! sigh.... i would never miss the church camp! and i dont want to miss it. so, i kind of decide that i'll just travel on my own and be the adventurous woman (tho' freaking out inside) but somehow, i felt as tho God's peace is with me, i mean i prayed and asked God whether can i go or not in the firsts place. So, then God brought Ju who also wanted to go! alrite! now i got TWO Adventurous Women! hehehe....
then her parents wanna tag along..... then her aunt wanna tag along.... oh well....
but nothing can dim this excitement as the days are coming closer and closer!
i'll be landing at auckland, then going to taupo, meeting maori(s) at rotorua, flying south to christchurch, straight to kaikoura's whale watching, oooh... hanmer spring for a spa day out, continue on the lake tekapo, to the famous mt cook, reaching queenstown - m still trying to pursuade ju to do the bungy jump, of course must go to te anau for some glow worm, and the ever recommended milford sound ride, from there, to dunedin to visit a some students and the choc factory, dropping by to visit some penguins at oomaru, back to christchurch for some shopping. by this time, i'll be dead tired but most happy - time to come home! oh, and did i mention, broke and bankrupt? hehehe..... but i'm sure the trip is worth it.
by then, i would have missed my mum horribly - not seeing her for SIX long weeks..... washing my own clothes, eating bread and maggi the six long weeks........................................
am i a contender?
we've not had a church camp since years...
but last week, once again, ecf regroup to port dickson for a contender church camp. sometimes i do wonder whether if i am really a contender.
i guess like pc says, when i fix my eyes on God, i'm quite walking-on-water-faith, i'm a contender but if i don't fix my eyes at Him, i tend to look at the wind and the storm and start this sinking feeling...
one thing i really pick up from the sessions is that 'if your top layer is peeled off, what would be revealed underneath'. it's kind of like the throne question pc posted to us 'if you follow the trace of your heart, it would lead u to a throne and who is on that throne?'
i guess many times it's me on the throne.. but i am trying most times to dethrone myself once the red alert button is blinking. = )
so back to the onion question, what's underneath?, will your character be able to sustain your success? i'm still pondering over that question and still wondering if my character's good enough?
many times and many things, i don't know. but one thing i know, if i ask God, He'll tell me and that is what i need desperately.
that's where i get all the answers to those disciples with many questions (ahem! u know who u r) and to the many times i lead cells. i don't go to cells all charged and all confidence and all knowing... i go in fear and trembling as tho walking on water knowing only that all i need to do is fixing my eyes of God and He'll use me! that's what i call trusting in Him.
but last week, once again, ecf regroup to port dickson for a contender church camp. sometimes i do wonder whether if i am really a contender.
i guess like pc says, when i fix my eyes on God, i'm quite walking-on-water-faith, i'm a contender but if i don't fix my eyes at Him, i tend to look at the wind and the storm and start this sinking feeling...
one thing i really pick up from the sessions is that 'if your top layer is peeled off, what would be revealed underneath'. it's kind of like the throne question pc posted to us 'if you follow the trace of your heart, it would lead u to a throne and who is on that throne?'
i guess many times it's me on the throne.. but i am trying most times to dethrone myself once the red alert button is blinking. = )
so back to the onion question, what's underneath?, will your character be able to sustain your success? i'm still pondering over that question and still wondering if my character's good enough?
many times and many things, i don't know. but one thing i know, if i ask God, He'll tell me and that is what i need desperately.
that's where i get all the answers to those disciples with many questions (ahem! u know who u r) and to the many times i lead cells. i don't go to cells all charged and all confidence and all knowing... i go in fear and trembling as tho walking on water knowing only that all i need to do is fixing my eyes of God and He'll use me! that's what i call trusting in Him.
Dance Voice
Since i've shared this during snl, it's not much of a secret anymore...
i was asking God for dreams and visions and then i felt He just dropped this whole plan into my mind/heart.
to do a dance fest for malaysian dance crazies. a bridge to dancers in malaysia - to come for the workshops.
to be 'louder in the dance scenes'.
i felt the plan was quite complete and i even have people in mind i think can invite to help conduct workshops... randall flinn, wordsinmotion, hillsong, ps julius and eileen, talentsinC, jane shortall, victor voon, urban groove, eximus, jayne, melissa, duaspace.. i mean all these people i have in mind... i know it's kinda like a dream away...
wanna do a controlled secular dance workshop for anyone and not just christians. one that can bridge any dance frenzies to some christians and strike a friendship with dancers.
not just what to call it yet "dance dream", "dance it all out", "dance project", "dance voice" or "dance a passion"
do like a weekend thing 2 to 3 days of workshops on - hiphop, breakdance, street dance, street commercial, footwork, jazz or even ballet.
during lunch or dinner time, show cut outs of the dance movies' ending scenes. those scenes where it's most touching or most challenging that can inspire people to dance - u got served, honey, save the last dance, center stage, dance with me, and some of the local dance competitions i shot.
promote dance without sensuality... creativity comes from God. i believe that ideas that God give can bring a greater impact than sex can bring to a music video!
end with a dance showcase from various workshops, or with a dance-drama to share a testimony or giving the mic to pastor/pc to share or dance jam.
not just reaching dancers, but it's about redeeming the industry for God!
the thing is, if it's just a dream, it will feel as though in the air or kinda far. but i know it's from God because it feel like a dream WITHIN MY REACH!! as though all i need is a key and the key is in God's hand and God is with me! wow!!
Oh, God, give me the grace in this dream you've deposited in me! Lord, You make a mark in the dance industry and take it back. In Jesus' name, Amen!
i was asking God for dreams and visions and then i felt He just dropped this whole plan into my mind/heart.
to do a dance fest for malaysian dance crazies. a bridge to dancers in malaysia - to come for the workshops.
to be 'louder in the dance scenes'.
i felt the plan was quite complete and i even have people in mind i think can invite to help conduct workshops... randall flinn, wordsinmotion, hillsong, ps julius and eileen, talentsinC, jane shortall, victor voon, urban groove, eximus, jayne, melissa, duaspace.. i mean all these people i have in mind... i know it's kinda like a dream away...
wanna do a controlled secular dance workshop for anyone and not just christians. one that can bridge any dance frenzies to some christians and strike a friendship with dancers.
not just what to call it yet "dance dream", "dance it all out", "dance project", "dance voice" or "dance a passion"
do like a weekend thing 2 to 3 days of workshops on - hiphop, breakdance, street dance, street commercial, footwork, jazz or even ballet.
during lunch or dinner time, show cut outs of the dance movies' ending scenes. those scenes where it's most touching or most challenging that can inspire people to dance - u got served, honey, save the last dance, center stage, dance with me, and some of the local dance competitions i shot.
promote dance without sensuality... creativity comes from God. i believe that ideas that God give can bring a greater impact than sex can bring to a music video!
end with a dance showcase from various workshops, or with a dance-drama to share a testimony or giving the mic to pastor/pc to share or dance jam.
not just reaching dancers, but it's about redeeming the industry for God!
the thing is, if it's just a dream, it will feel as though in the air or kinda far. but i know it's from God because it feel like a dream WITHIN MY REACH!! as though all i need is a key and the key is in God's hand and God is with me! wow!!
Oh, God, give me the grace in this dream you've deposited in me! Lord, You make a mark in the dance industry and take it back. In Jesus' name, Amen!
