Do Good N Help Others

Galatians 6:10, so then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, and especially to those who are of the household of faith

Psalm 145:9, the Lord is good to all, and His mercies are over all His works.

Recently, I've thoughts on this topic. The Bible teaches me to do good and I see my pastors always do good and help others. Yet I also grow up in an environment that is petty in doing good unless there is return reward and if there is no known return, I get scolding for helping and usually end in a heated argument. Sometimes I feel like I should stop helping others so that I don't create any fights at home.

Recently, a close family friend passed away. She was a multimillionaire but live like a miser herself. Of course all the money was saved up and now given away to nieces and nephews. I was sadden by the news especially since I did not get to see her in her last days. But during this CNY, the gossip that I heard saddens me even more. Phrases like "...that niece should have bodek her aunt so that she gets all her inheritance.." kept popping up. I don't know how to respond.

Personally, I feel like it is such an irresponsible statement and the intention of the person is so 'not morally right,' not to mention Christ-like. Yet the person that said that is a close family member. If I were to speak out, she will be offended and feels that I am being disrespectful. In a Chinese family culture that is consider "no big no small" (does not respect the elderly). Yet If I don't speak up, it will be like I agree with her, which I don't. The dilemma is laughable.

I want to do good and learn to do more good but there are those in this fallen world that does not 'like' to do good and even discourages me to do good. To continue the story, the niece mentioned did not treat her aunt well and now live in fear that her ghost will come back and haunt her. She live like a mental breakdown person now. Do good not just so that we can live without mental breakdown but do good just cos we should and need to do good because that is good.

Thank God there is the Word Of God to constantly align us to be Christ-like and do good.

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From Jasmine with love

To Sharon for tears..

before Jasmine Yow left to Australia, she gave me this packet of "cute healer" snack with a note that says that I can only eat it when I'm down and need some comfort.

So for the whole of last year, I dare not eat it just for the sake of wanting to munch. I waited and waited and last week, I've no choice but to eat it already cos it's gonna be expired if I don't eat it anymore! hahhaa..

Dear Jasmine,
Last year was rough but I managed to hang on and didn't succumb to pity party. There were teary moments but I told myself that I can still hang on and can save your love-snack till a worse moment.. and before I know it, i've survived the year.

But through this simple pack of junkfood, I remember your love and thoughts throughout 2011.

Hugs,
Sharon

It's been a strange journey...

I'm in a strange journey...

Walking in a blur, stepping in a dream, moving in numbed emotions and stepping on a land fill with landmines that might or might not blow up in my face, bring me down and injuring those around me... masked face. masked emotions.

yet in the midst of this, there were various glimpse of light.

just like yesterday, being called out to dinner unexpectedly.

nailin said something that was really touching. she said that every time she needed me i was there for her and so for her this time i needed someone, she decided to clear her schedule to be here for me and offer her services. i was really moved but suddenly like that i dunno how to take off the mask and show my relieve and moved-face. i think i was kind stoic about it... which totally ruin the moment. but i am indeed really glad. in times of war, i need accomplice and a friend. i need someone that stand with me and support me.

just like i told yc. i really need her to be my sister for this next few months and i just need total friendship from her because i really need her to be for me in this two months.

maybe i did wrong. maybe i did not do good enough. maybe i'm all messed up.

why are there always so many front to fight against? die a little every day.

no matter how i do it, there's no pleasing anyone.

hurt ppl hurts ppl. ouch.. quietly continue to walk at the land with masked face, masked emotions, hoping no more landmines will explode... again.

BUT

God won't let me free fall.

"He will not allow u more than u can bear"

either a friend will encourage me or a gift came or favourite dessert arrived ...

and last night, an ultimate gift arrived... my grand uncle came. eighty over years old and he came after two over years.. the last time he came, I was only nine years old (i went to visit him twice in the past few years. in fact, once at the early of this year) and he's one of the most sayang me people on this earth and i know it's been his desire to come here to see everyone and he made it! That lifted my spirit several notch! He's one of the most sincerest and person Ive ever met. With no personal agenda, no bitterness in life and really care for me. After twenty over years and the first time i purposefully went to meet him at Sheung Shui, Hong Kong, one of the few first thing he quietly said to me as we were walking to lunch was, " i know he's (my dad) not been good to the family but it's ok. u grow up already, must take care yah..." i just tear up immediately. just the love and concern in his gesture made me feel so loved. THAT is my grand uncle. 81 years old this year. If I pass by/near Hong Kong, i will definitely drop in to visit him for sure.

Thank you, God. For bringing me love all the way from heaven to earth, from hong kong to kl... You the BEST God.

Cuti-Cuti KL Malls

The past week was great! Me and Trish felt like tourists in our own country! hahaha...

Friday night I went to Times Square to cut hair and walk around Offline Blogshop.

Sat & Sun work lah of course..

Monday I went for facial and waited for Trish to come from Kuantan. Saw David there too. When Trish arrive, we head on to Mid Valley and Gardens for the whole day and then had dinner with Skye. Must have Gong Cha at Gardens that day by demand of Trisha Wong! hehehe...

Tuesday we went to KLCC Shopping Mall and visited the Popular book fair at the convention centre. Invited Ching for dinner but she fly us aeroplane at the last minute. So we went to eat steamboat buffet at Subang then Chatime after that. Actually we stopped at Ming Tien on the way but didnt really feel like eating there so we left.

and must tell u we had this encounter... from KLCC, we took the train to KL Sentral hoping that the TNGo counter is open but it was not. On our way back to KLCC, we sat next to this chinese man (singaporean) on the verge of tears as he recounted his story of how he was robbed when he came down from the bus and the police were not helpful and some kind girl bought him the ticket to go to Ampang Park and walk to the Singapore Embassy to ask for help cos his passport was inside. We gave him twenty bucks so that he can at least have lunch and for the ticket back to KL Sentral later because his brother will arrive the next morning. Not sure if the story is true or not but at least we did something about it. the police actually asked him why was he so "careless"! that man was shaken and panicking cos he's now stranded without money or passport and all he got from the police was critic..? mm... i apologised on behalf of our country and our policemen. He insisted to get my number to pay me back. I insisted that he can just have it so he say he will pass on my twenty bucks to another needy person when he meet one. He was actually on his way to Jerantut for a meditation session. He's from a Buddhist society...

Wednesday we went to One Utama Shopping Mall to have lunch with Agape while Trisha shopped on her own. Then we were late and had to rush off to the bus station. Her bus leaves at 5pm and we arrive at 5pm. She ran in to the bus station and caught the bus in time to go home. After that she went Karaoke with her ex-schoolmates while I went home and doze off halfway reading a novel.

Today.... start work after this post! =)

What an interesting day...

Ok. I think today is interesting. At least for me, it's interesting. Interesting is personally defined as I learnt something new or discover a new experience. Personal definition.

So as usual I went to church but after church came to pc house for discipleship. Today we stool turn to share about our job. Although I vaguely know what some of them do but today I get to hear them and ask them question. I discovered that Su Leen does clinical trial, mostly with cancerous patience. I learnt that Charlene worked as IT departmental had before. Now I know that Carolyn always thought of doing IT but ended up as music teacher. All new information for me after years of being in the same group.

Then I hate a one to one session with pc where we talked through some challenges and work out some working together on the production. I feel like there's light at the end of the tunnel. An opening at the dead end I thought I've reached. It's weird. I'm still trying to comprehend the situation and how to walk around and through it. Truly a weird feeling.

And then, more interesting is that Neil Batiancila came to cook for pc because he and Ying are meeting pc for pre marital counseling. Of course they invited me to dinner. Standing there in the kitchen, seeing Neil and Ying cook and pc's occasional banter there and there and joining into the conversation with them are all more or less first time experience for me. I'm close tonic but not to close to Neil and I don't think I ever seen Neil n Ying in dating mode. Hahaha.. But interesting dinner. The food is good. Verdict is - Neil can cook. Maybe u already know that. Hahaha...

Ok. The night has not ended. Kareem went to fetch Kel from the airport and when he drop Kel, pc invited him to come in for a round of board game! Yeah.. Not touched a board game for months.. I think it was before pc went away.. That would be like march..? Wondering what game and how it will be like. Playing game for me is an intentional step because generally I too insecure to lose. I can don't win or be somewhere in the middle but I don't want to be at the bottom. Me n my issues lah... So usually I opt to be the game master in all the previous year camps. Hahaha... One step at a time. One step... =)

Off from tomoro onwards.. Yahoo.. Off days off days are the best days!

ok... I LOST HORRIBLY playing with pc n kareem. horribly.... hahaha...

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My New Green Watch

Recently, there was like thought that sneaked into my mind. 

I wanted to get a Baby-G watch and then the PC got a gift of a Baby-G and this one tiny thought sneaked in my mind ... "God wont care enough to bless u with one cos u dont deserve it." I immediately shrug it off and tell myself not to believe that because God also blessed me with many gifts from various people and I should not believe such lies! But few times the thought tries to sneak in again... 

i was looking at various models and fixing my budget and asking my friend's opinion if he got 'jalan' to buy such thing. then he just say that he'll get it for me. i was actually shocked plus the watch is like two hundred plus. as usual i told him no need it's ok and too expensive of a gift to receive. the next day he actually seriously went to search watch shops to get me one. 

other close friends started asking me like why and how come and questions... but deep inside i know it's God answering me and assuring me that HE remembers me and call me by my name. For someone that is insecure like me, constant assurance is much needed and HE do know me inside out.

Childhood

Was watching this series on the various journeys of the characters linked to this school for the delinquents.
As each episode unfold, the viewer are brought to see the story behind each child and how they end up in this school. One boy was forced to dress up s girl to serve alcohol to earn alcohol money for the father, another was left by the father, another brothers were beaten by the father and locked into dog cage when he go out.. Maybe there were drama elements but we can never be too shocked to know that that is happening. In the world.

But even the teachers have their own journeys.. One was a delinquent himself. Newly released from prison because he took the fall for his big brother who happens to be his brother in law so that the guy can take care of his I'll sister. Another had a controlling mother that loved him too much. Another was being controlled and manipulated by her foster mother to live her life as per her teeniest command spoken. Who say adults knows everything? Most adults knows nuts!

Their lives were all changed as they come to this school to be helped or to give help. The school is run by a pastor that is humbly very influential because he'd touched many lives. . Ironically, its a a church. A pastor. And s every one journey together, they discover new love, new hope, new way to live life and move on from their pasts.

The story has not finish but every time I watch an episode, I will be encouraged. My life is really not that bad and there needs to be real love in this world and not just fake love or love to manipulate others. Everyone deserves it.