He's gone...

He's NOT dead lah! haha...
he's just gone to be equipped for 10 months!
Good for him! If you were at his farewell, you would have heard the many stories and lives he'd touched in just the few short years since he got saved. He'd brought about 15 ppl to christ since then! how many of us even brought a few? Hooray for MAX!
He'll be back with a tougher armor of God! =)

He was Kevin's bestman, hence, the suit.
the last i heard from him, on jun 11 3pm, he was having lunch with new course mates and is very blessed.

Sharing of Dreams

Max's t-shirt goes something like this..."If you think that I'm a dreamer, I tell you, I'm not the only one."

I have this dream of reaching artistes and being in the industry and all that. I'm no where near the industry or the people in the industry but as I pray and plan, and pray... things began to fall in place.

in jan there was rain's concert and in march there was wang lee hom's concert. i prayed about going but i know God say not to buy the tickets because He wants me to invest some money to the people that's going to Hillsong! Although hard to accept, yet i wanna obey God!!!! so i crucify my desires and obeyed. i didnt buy the ticket. Then, my dear nailin went and join the hotlink competition and won TWO tickets for me!!! yahoo!

i prayed for wlh concert but didnt get any tickets so i went to prayer walk while he was having concert in the hall! but we can hear so clearly from outside!!! sound just CD! Wah liow eh! then in our walking, we went into the backstage and saw the band, the dancers but he left liow lah of course.. haha... but it was a new experience for us too! it got us excited and all knowing God can open any doors for us! but of course if able to see him would be better but then it's ok. it's in God's hands!

one discipleship day, pc asked whether what would we do if we have a lot of money - u know those typical question - but i seriously tot about it and i know in my heart what i really want to do. of course i cant deny i'll spend some on myself but i want to start a 'Dreamers' Fund'. i did not come from a well to do family and in college days i would have times i don't have money for lunch and i cant join any extra activities because of fees problem or buying uniforms problem... so i want to invest into a generation of dreamers.
not just education but then just dreams that are measured - going to EN07, going to ENLI, starting a business, sending Su to training course - because i believe in them!

lo and behold, Su picked it up during one of the offering collection time and shared it to the SNL congregation that if she got a lot of money, she wanna invest into my dreamers fund! since then, this fund has become another dream that so many ppl encouraged me about!

Kat & Wytee, began to say that they have a friend working in Genting Entertainment for 10 years and running the events there! wow.. that's like an enlightenment of connections.

i was praying about finance to see how i can take a pay cut, support my family and go start all over from the bottom at the industry - then kat shared that she will bless me in a business and all profit will go to me! hmph! another opening - a financial backer!

i am praying to take a trip to taiwan next year and see the industry there and prayer walk at some places but i was concern of finance... and one fine day, i was sharing with nancy and she say she's got a good friend there that can host me... summore she's nice, godly and her husband is kinda well to do so they stay at taipei! wow! good location! hehe... another opening!

i told pc about i wanting to go try 'volunteer' at sammi cheng concert and if don't need me at vic wkd then i dont wanna go. but my first priority is of course honor God first and if pc wants me to do, i'll go to minister! without me knowing pc shared it to the pastoral team!! so i was released from vic wkd. so since then, mark kor has been teasing me about 'how's ms cheng?' haha... i told him that i might not be able to 'volunteer' because they dun have such thing lah but i wanna buy a ticket to go and see how the production is - but buying the cheapest ticket because i dont want to spend the money - sit at the corner and cant see the face wan! haha..
he immediately say he'll sponsor me half the ticket price for the more expensive ticket... of course i say no need.. he took out his wallet and gave me hundred bucks!!!!!!! wow!
thanks, mark kor, for believing in this dreamer. i will always remember how you invested fatherly to my life! so i booked the ticket with kat to go to the RM117 ticket seats! yay! and Kat of course my other partner in dreaming, sponsored the other RM17!
So i didnt have to pay for it! alrito! come to think of it, i didnt pay for any concert tickets this year.

in these 4 years, i was convicted that i wanna setup all the systems in the church office and in the church so that when i leave, everything is in order... that i've raised the various ppl to take my place... but out of the flow of various eventful events, pastor decide to hire - either an administrator or even an office manager! Max was saying that when he saw the announcements, he knew that i'm on my dream track liow... that's when i realised that hey.. God is working without me pushing. another piece of puzzle just fall into place by itself.

there are many dreamers in this house of God!
there are many believers of dreamers in this house of God!

thank you very much for believing in me and investing in this dreamer in this house of God!
i'm not the best. you guys are the best! you touched my life and you've engraved love into my heart to believe in ppl. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you.

Psalm 18:31 - 36

For who is God besides the LORD?
and who is the Rock except our God?

It is the Lord who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect.
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights.

He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.

You give me your shield of victory,
and your right hand sustains me;
you stoop down to make me great.

You broaden the path beneath me,
so that my ankles do not turn.

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reading these words already gives faith and hope to go on.
but how come so many times, it's easier to give up, to run, to leave, to avoid,
to fear... than to hold on to Him?

Lord, have mercy on your people. We need You.
I need His strong arms to pull me up.
Like i shared at SNL preservice prayer, we all need a hero in our lives.
Every where i turn, i see ppl crying out for a hero - loudly and silently...

So You Think You Can Worship?

I AM SO EXCITED!!! about this new production we are doing!!!

It's gonna be called 'So, you think you can dance(strike off) worship?'

i know the name seems familiar but let me enlighten u!
this came about last year during a season when i was praying what does God wanna do or tell His people.
I was pondering on it for a while and then during one of the worship time at one of the SNL services, God dropped the whole vision into my head and i saw how He wanted to do it!
i quickly wrote it down and shared with the team but then at that time, it was not feasible to do it plus the preparation is a lot of work so i shelved the idea but last month, i was looking thru my tot book and saw this and felt that we need to be faithful with what God has given to us and need to do it!

so i submitted the idea to PC and she suggest that we do it during ParaDive Camp and then the church service!
Hence, we started the process of this production!! =)

This is the MESSAGE 2 u:

You can watch MTV channel 24/7, you can be able to do all the dance steps but it will not change your ‘mood’. But once you tune in to worship God and praise Him, your spiritual atmosphere will change. You will walk away LIFTED and able to see HOPE in your future.

i. Able to bring out the difference between world vs worship, self vs spirit in what we do.

ii. Creating a platform where the people will join us in proclaiming the words of ‘Still Standing’ and hopefully it will be something deposited in their heart that they can always call on God’s grace to continue still standing in whatever situation they are going through.

Questions to ponder:
* Do you listen to secular songs?
* Does it affect your mood? hear a sad song u become moody. hear a love song your desire to be love just surge thru unbearable limits.
*Does the songs give you a hope, a future or joy or even strength to go on or just leave you with many unreachable longings?
*Do you worship God? and i don't mean fast song or slow song... ahha
* Do you feel freer or joy upon you when or after you worship? singing 'i'm trading my..' i feel burden released after that. singing 'hosanna...' i feel like God is my savior i can do anything. singing 'how great is my god..' im reminded of the promises of God in my life and gives me a hope to dream to again....


The whole production is going to be in 2 parts (i think).. ahha...

Yesterday or day before, i was again praying for this production and listening to the song - i felt God says that His anointing is upon the Still Standing song and He'ld use it for His purpose.
I really felt the whole thing needs to come out right so that it is according the will of God.
I was telling Nai Lin that i'm leading this production in fear and trembling just like moses threading carefully on holy ground... it's like i want every bit of the detail to be what God wants it to be so that we will ALL not miss what God wants to do to thru us to the crowd!

i'm still praying for the perfect verse for the production. the message would be along the line of 'you can sing and dance all the songs u see on mtv channel but it won't change your life. but if u would just worship God - even just one song - it will renew your spirit, your strength, it will give you a hope and reason of joy'... something like that... will need to polish it more.. hahah..

After more2life+anf, who am i... here comes... 'so you think can worship?'
so, brace yourself for A NEW THING! A NEW WORK!

what's before me?

Lord, what's before me?
will u go before me?
will u open the way for me or do i need to make a new way for others to follow?
why do i feel like i'm moving into something that nobody went before me?
where do i fit?
should i resign?
how will the open door be?
am i going to be travelling between here n t?
should i go to t? tryout for a year?
how do i settle the things at home?
should i let y follow me? what's your will for her?
how will the business be? will it be able to support me?
when do i need to leave? leave job? leave here? where to?
who will take over the the blanks if i leave?
will i get a chance to share gospel to lh, v, jc?
will i get a chance to give spiritual smacking to v? for giving stupid dumb blond answers? haha..
m i preparing myself well?
m i honoring you? are you please with me?
Lord, are you going before me? are you leading me?

lord, i just want to honor you.
there are so many decisions to make, so many things to do, so many doubts to conquer, so many projects unfinished, so many many many side demanding my attn NOW yet so many uncertainties in my mind...
just tell me what is your will so i can go that direction and not miss what u have installed for me.

I JUST WANT TO HONOR YOU, LORD. Lead me in your righteousness. Make straight the way before so i will not stray not be lost.

Psalm 5:8, Lead me, O LORD, in your righteousness because of my enemies - make straight your way before me.

pastor say within everyone of us there is a seed of greatness.
m i walking in that direction of discovering it yet?

if can, dance wit ur feet. if u can't, dance with your heart...

wow... as i uploaded the last post, i realised something.. haha..

majority of what i wrote had to do with dance one way or another... if you've not noticed, i tink it's obvious dance is my passion right... haha...
do join us if u like to dance..
12pm- adult
1:30pm - kids...

RM5 per class...

We are The Anthem of Christ...

First Stop: ECF
It was really messy.. hhaha... but we all have learnt to enjoy ourselves and not fret about the steps.. ahhaa..
we 'tried' to make funky hairstyles but then we ended up handsome and pretty of course... ahah... can't help it...

Nowadays, dance team getting more and more... wad's the word... hmm... 'improved'... we are arranging for makeup helper and also got our own hairstylist! hahah.... many thanks and MUAKS to Carolyn Lee & Sam Goh! u guys are the best! hehe... even the band borrow our hairstylist... ahah.. we were using so much hair spray that i think we contributed to the hole in the ozone layer.. haha...

Although there were tough times during practices - i screamed at them, some people got scolded, some got adjusted, people were late, the fear of this and that... but the the performance isnt the main thing.
the main thing is we always reconcile, encourage one another, celebrated Ina's birthday, eat together, shared lives, laugh at one another, kacau one another, carried one another's burden in the team and reach our friends...

we look so happy in the picture not cos we posed for it but because we are really happy dancing together and teaming together....right, guys? haha..

i'm really proud of this team. u guys are the best one accord dance team!
we are history makers on April 28th & 29th, 2007! We all made history.
I won't trade my team for another team. we are 'together-wan'. =)
Next Stop: KDU
we no longer care about the flow.. haha... just do it.. just do it...
even when the flow of dive in song was changed without prior notice.. we just play along saja... haha.. it was another good time for the team i guess. although the stage got shorter but wider, we were all cramped together and hard not to whack one another so we made a deal... even if we whack, we continue and apologise later... just don't whack back on stage! hahahaa....

about midnite the night before, i sms all the dancers that we should attend the sunday service cos there was no snl and Rachel Ong is really anointed and i'm sure it would be a good message. they were really faithful - even ina woke up early - and came for service. true enough, the message was good... when she took the pulpit i already feel the presence God was so strong i wanna cry liow... one thing really spoke to me was to be kind to ppl according to God's words. i've been trying to practice that ever since... good for the ppl around me... haha.. be kind to them...

anyway, i was so proud the dancers came because at least the service had some young ppl attending and we made ecf proud because of our presence.. hwakhwakhwakhwak....

then we left for lunch at KDU side of town - all wearing sold out t-shirt - and met up with Nai Lin. surprise celebrate Ina's bdae... since it's her bdae weekend, nobody got punished for being late on the performance day! hahah... grace n kindness for her!

i was telling the team that if ppl ask why we were all wearing same tee, please quickly invite them to the concert and true enuf these 2 guys came and ask... blur saw the 'dance' word at the back of some of our sold out tees that he inquired about the concert so i sponsored him a ticket to the concert - and he came! woo hooo!!

the rehearsal was good... and we prayed as a team and even spread out to lay hand on each of the chair in the hall praying for the person. that was good! worshipful dancers that are prayerful too!

then the breaking news: i left my jeans! hahaha... that was the anthem costume...
just the nite before, arlyne forgot hers and then i pulak do the same thing cos i left it at the chair in my room! haha.. good thing yc got extra - so i wore hers but then i had to belt it cos i too fat and can only zip up but cant buckle! hahha... good thing the t-shirt is long and cover way below the belt and not obvious! hahaha....

rber i said i gave a tix to b-boy blur during lunch... glad to make new friends and hope to see his faith grow. he's a good kid... i can call him that cos i'm like 10 yrs older than him! haha..
sometimes i'm just not sure what's the best way to do things.. i see potential in him, i see the passion in him, i see that God has a purpose for him to crossed our path in life... yet i dunno how to share all these without scaring him or making him misun that i'm pushing... balancing is sometimes the hardest journey...
so i prayed... i really pray for God to preserve him for His purpose and plan...


all in all, the Sold Out was successfully LAUNCHED and the team immediately flew off to New Zealand for their concerts at Christchurch n Auckland... although i was really sad cos i cant go with them yet my spirit is with them in faith and in blessings... i sent them to the airport, had burger king with them, sent them off in prayers for them to touch lives because the sold out is really a message of God and ..... (sing) i.... be...lieeeve..... hehe..

btw, i didnt open my copy of the sold out album. here's why...
since rain's concert in feb, i've been carrying an album in my bag with a note just in case i meet any artiste, i wanna give them a message from God. and from now on, i'll always carry a sold out album (until 1a.m. 3rd album) in my bag so that if ever God open door for me to catch wlh or jc or vw or she or wz or sw or al or md or any artiste, purposely or accidentally, i am ready to give them a message from God... i don't know when so i better be prepared than miss the chance. =)

if u too believe in 'His Call Your All' then do something about. make a difference in this lifetime.
All over the world, ppl are calling out for a saviour... (maybe the next post i'll share what are my insights in this issue.. hehe..watch superman return n u'll un... bye for now...)

God bless you! sharon be kind to u! haha..